Natural Thoughts....

I have been stalking hair vlogs on YouTube and looking at all the product reviews.. Just having me a good time... Now not all hair I see is.... PLEASING to my eye.. But beauty is in the eye of the beholder I guess and far be it from me, being a new Ne-Ga-Ro (Like how I did that.. Keep saying it.. You'll get it..), to deter anyone from a more natural life.. You're beautiful because you are as you are....


But even with all that.... I've noticed something....

Most highlighted naturals....

A. Have hair that shouldn't have been processed in the first place...

AND

B. Are thin or have thin or small faces or heads..

So now then there's me.. Sure I was fine with my locks.. I was so in the romance and bliss and sugar snaps and farts stage of being natural that I just went with it.. Big ol' head and fat face and all.... I didn't care about hard hair cause I wanted it as hard and kinky as possible because (I believed)that would make me lock faster and make awesome locks.. And it did. My locks are awesome.. Lint and all. LoL! But a heavy woman can have locks.. Hell, stereotypically we are the ones with them. (The stereotype is not flattering.) But this is gonna be my natural, tightly curled, busy hair... On my fat head... Around my fat face.... kinda scary...

Fear won't stop me.. But has anyone else noticed this? Most of the naturals online look like models!! I'm wondering what will I do looking like regular old folks? I just took loose my 5th lock and am almost done with my 6th. (Yeah, I'm on a roll this weekend!! LoL!) Since I'm not destroying my already carpal tunnel ridden hands anymore on that debone line, I can take them loose more often, so probably in another month or 2 I'm gonna be totally loose!! I have to get some help with this or I'll be rocking some fierce hair.. With my HEAD DOWN!!! Not a good look..

So I have to get some confidence pretty damned fast... Still.. Has anyone noticed the whole "gotta be skinny and cute for natural hair" thing? Or is it just me?

Later..

Jen