Saturday, August 06, 2011

Don't forget...

Curlies, I am at Wordpress right now.

How have things been? Well, I've been using the same products pretty much. I've shaken it up a little with application, stopped using some products. (Bye Bye Olive Miracle Moisturizing Lotion! It started making my hair hard. My actual BEST day with it, was the FIRST time I used it!! And the softness didn't last after I woke up, but I just thought i was using it wrong. But it just does not work for me. Shame too.. Smelled SO good. Bye Bye Vo5 Moisture Milks. They don't soak into my hair correctly. I'll use the rest up for cowashes at some point, but.. It just doesn't work well anymore. I'm thinking it's the protein in it that makes it just not work for my hair. ) Started using some products MORE. (Long Aid likes to be pretty much stand alone. Aussie Moist makes a PERFECT leave in. Rebel just soaks it all up and gets SO soft. Plus it smells awesome for DAYS in my hair!)

My patch is pretty much grown out, so my head doesn't look abnormally weird anymore. (Just regular weird, LoL!) It's growing into a pretty well rounded fro. Great.

So come on and check out my new blog at wordpress.
Ciao.

Jen

Saturday, July 30, 2011

Just a quick reminder!!

AfroCurls, formally On A Journey is now on Wordpress. I won't give up this blog, and will be coming here from time to time- especially with product reviews. But for my daily blogging, I'm doing the wordpress thing. Stop by if you get a chance. AfroCurls On Wordpress.

So far I'm enjoying the loose life. I've been wearing my hair out at work. (EEK!) And everything is going pretty good. I even think DH is getting use to it.. :)

OK.. So I'll be at WP.. Getting my post on.. :p

Ciao..

Jen

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Monday 6/20/11

Monday 6/20/11

Well back at work again. Everyone else is enjoying day 4 at home. Friday was just 3 hours. Today is probably gonna be 10. But I need the money, so I gotta get it. 

  Anyway, this is a hair blog, not a broke-y bitch line right? LoL! Ok, so what IS going on with the hair on this fine day? Well I got tired of my hair being stuck to the back of my head in a dry mess when I wake up, so I decided to try baggy-ing (I can't spell, I know!) for the first time since jheri curl days. I spritzed and added some of the moisturizing lotion and a little Long Aid, put on my shower cap (I don't much line the ones I have. They're the colourful and like vinyl or something. I like the clear ones better, but this was all they had.) and my satin bonnet. When I woke up, through the caps my hair still felt the same. I was like "dammit!" Then I removed them... And it was pretty soft. Easily fluffed. If I'd gotten pressed for time, I could have just fluffed and left and not looked totally busted. The one thing I DIDN'T like was that "hat" smell that came from under that cap when I took it off! But it didn't last, so all in all, baggying works fine. My hair is still really, REALLY soft. I have to get some bigger, CLEAR conditioner caps though. (aka shower caps) So baggying works for Rebel. :)

  My products are holding up pretty well. The Captivating Curls is a good product. It pretty much does what it claims, I saw more curl definition and my hair seems shinier. (Probably from all the CONES in this conditioner! This stuff is SO not curly girl friendly! If I kept using this I'd have to probably shampoo in 2 months or EARLIER!) The Olive Miracle Moisturizing Lotion works pretty well, but I have to- well I don't HAVE to, but I FEEL I need to- reapply it. But it gets greasy really easy. I mean just looks GREEEEZY sometimes. I guess it's that "pink lotion" effect. I feel the need to rinse EVERY DAY with this, and that defeats the purpose of baggying. I still think this is a good product. I just have to figure out how much to use. I think it doesn't NEED to be reapplied in the morning if you use it that night maybe. I think I keep putting it on because it smells so GOOD! Kind of like bananas or something. That's the closest I can think of. Anyway it smells so nice I wanna keep putting it in and it turns into greasy hot ass mess. Then I gotta rinse it out. 

  And I think I "secretly" like rinsing. :p I just like to rinse it out. Get it all wet and not have to worry about reversion (straightened), excess dryness (Relaxed) or it taking 20 minutes and then being SOAKING wet and taking all day to dry! (Locs) I know this is gonna get harder as my hair gets longer. I ALREADY notice it takes 10 minutes to detangle now. (I know, waaa, right? Ten WHOLE minutes! When lots of ladies spend 30+! 10 is a LOT for me! I'm LAZY!! LoL!) Not sure if it's because of the way I apply product or it's ALREADY growing! But it gets tangled more now. Hair loss is not massive, but damn! This is a TWA! or is it? I actually don't know what this is. My hair is under my chin in the front stretched. But the sides and back are short. So I call it a TWA still. ANYWAY! It shouldn't take long yet. LoL! 

  But even THAT I enjoy! I LOVE my hair. Who knew? If someone had told me that "nappy" wouldn't be in my vocab, and I'd LOVE my tight curls, I would consider "you need a perm" like sayin' "Yo' mama a stank bitch"- you fin'na get cussed out!- like 13 years ago, I would have called them CRAZY! Not miss "wanna be!" LoL! But here I am.. 33 years old. NATURAL! And proud of my tight ass curls! What a different mindset you have when you're grown up. :)

I guess that's it. It's time for slaving to take place. 

Ciao!

Jen :D

Saturday, June 18, 2011

I think I have a new home...

On WordPress. I'm going to be on there a lot from now on. The photo upload is much faster. and it's not a bad format. :)

So when you get time, stop by AfroCurls on WordPress.. I'll still be here occassionally, but I think I'll be there more.

Here's the link. http://AfroCurls.wordpress.com

Ciao

Jen

New Products to try!! Always awesome!! :)

Good or bad, I LOVE having new products to test. And I have my little haul from Walmart last night. Right now I'm sitting here with Suave Captivating Curls conditioner in my hair, letting it work it's magic with my shower cap on it.. So far, it's OK. It's no Aussie Moist, but it's pretty good for under $2. It has great slip, but not as good as the Aussie. (I FINALLY got my huge bottle with the pump. SO happy right now.)



The hype:

Suave Professionals NEW Captivating Curls Conditioner

Salon proven to define curls as well as Redken

For curly or Wavy Hair

Salon quality hair care system proven to moisturize, control, and define curls as well as Redken Fresh Curls shampoo and conditoner. (I'mma have to stop them there, there is no way in HELL I'm using that sulfate shampoo on my hair.. Well, maybe.. But not on a regular basis. IF I used it, it would be 2-4 times a year.)

Moisturizing conditoner enriched with an anti-frizz complex nourishes and softens curls for frizz control and shine. Apply, rinse.

Up to 2X more curl definition! (Shampoo & Conditioner vs. non conditioning shampoo alone. Which is just stupid. I always hate this with systems. Saying the whole system works better than just a non conditioning shampoo ALONE just seems like you think your customers are idiots- or your product isn't any better than anyone elses.. But you think we won't read the fine print. What sucks is it's on most conditoners and shampoos that boast to be better.. Just plain... STOP it..)

OK, this is part one. The application. As I said, the conditioner has good slip. I had a bit of shedding, but it may not be due to this product. It may be just shedding, as I only detangle once a week.. Plus it wasn't THAT much shedding.. You know we naturals are paranoid about maintaining length and just making sure we nurture or strands PERIOD. My hair seemed to actually soak up this stuff like NOTHING! So it's good it's cheap. I mean I was SLATHERING it on, and it was just disappearing into my hair. I don't know if that's good or bad. My hair isn't very porous, so I don't know what to tell ya. The bottle still has a lot of conditioner in it. It's 14.5 oz (428 mL), and I feel it will last a month with weekly use.. Maybe even longer. All in all so far so good. I'd say at this point, it's worth the $1.78 I paid for it.. Or $1.97.. something like that.

The smell, is typical Suave Professionals. It's not the Naturals smell. No coconut, no strawberry, no sunshine and farts (Not even sure if THAT'S a good thing. LoL!) .. It's just Suave smell. I really don't have an issue with it, but I can't say it smells "luxurious". Just smells like conditioner... By Suave.. OK.. It's thick. Thicker than the Suave Naturals, more like lotion. And there is dimethicone in it.. LOTS of dimethicone. It's the 3rd ingredient in here, so if you don't like cones, keep walking cause this stuff is FULL of it!! I didnt' see that when I bought it, and I actually JUST read how far up on the list it is as I'm writing this! So that's a fail for me right there, as I exclusively co-wash. Dimethicone has to be shampooed out once it builds up, and I really don't like to shampoo.. this stuff is like cowashing with Aveeno LOTION! It rinses away (eventually) with water from your hands, but it takes a bit of working.

Here's your ingredient list:

Water, Cetearyl Alcohol, Dimethicone, Stearamidopropyl Dimethylamine, Behentrimonium Chloride, Fragrance, Dipropylene Glycol, Lactic Acid, Potassium Chloride, Amodimethicone, Disodium EDTA, DMDM Hydantoin, PEG-150 Disterate, PEG-7 Propylheptyl Ether, Cetrimonium Chloride, Hydrolyzed Silk, Silk Amino Acids, Tocopheryl Acetate (Vitamin E), Methylchloroisothiazolinone, Methylisothiazolinone, Ascorbic Acid (Vitamin C), Niacinamide.

I'm deep conditioning with it right now and I'm about to rinse it out and see what I'm left with. Normally I leave it in for hours.. But the smell of this is kinda getting to me. Making me a bit nauseous, so I guess 2 hours will do! LoL!!
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OK. Now I'm all rinsed out and styled. I'm pretty happy with the results, BUT I can't say if it's the conditioner OR that I'm getting better with applying my stylers.. BUT, I did notice more curls defined before adding product than normal. So I guess it did define curls. Then again, so does Aussie. LoL! It's really not a bad product, I will use it up and may buy it again. I am a fan of Suave. All in all, it's nothing to write home about, but it is good. I'd recommend it to another curly gal out there.


The other product is the Olive Miracle Moisturizing Lotion by African Pride.




I like the smell of this product, but you can use it on we hair. I found that out JUST now. I tried to use it like hair milk on wet hair, expecting it to just maybe leave a little with haze that will dry clear... NOTHING DOIN'!! It started running back out of my hair and down my face, so I had to rinse that out. Too many oils I guess. I guess this is a damp hair product at best. Mostly made for use on dry hair. So I guess it fall in the catagory of "finisher" products. I was able to towel dry my hair a little and add a LITTLE bit under my Long Aid. It seems to be working and my hair is really soft. I'm actually thinking this may be a good idea for ALL my products. My hair won't absorb products wet. They just seem to bead up and sit on top. Especially in the front. But even with the little bit I was able to put in my hair damp, it smell really good. :)

here are those ingredients: (I think I listed them in another post.. I THINK I've pasted that here already. LoL! It gets confusing, all that copying and pasting from days past..)

Water, Soybean Oil, Propylene Glycol, Olive Oil, Shea butter, coconut oil, jojoba oil, avocado oil, Panax Ginseng root Extract, Rosemary Extract, Horsetail extract, Tea Tree Oil, Hydrogenated Vegetable Oil, Steareth-2, Steareth-20, Polyquaternium-37, Propylene Glycol Dicaprylate/Dicaprate, PPG-1, Dimethicone, DMDM Hydantoin, TBHQ, Methylparaben, Propylparaben, CI19140 (FD&C Yellow #5), Fragrance

This list is looking pretty good to me. I'm no chemist, so I really don't know what those last ingredients are or what they are for, but the first ingredients sound edible! LoL! Like I can take this stuff and cook with it. There does seem to be a learning curve to using it though. I mean, I KNEW how to use lotions and such, i mean we use to SCRAMBLE to get that Pink Lotion.. But now we know about curl definition and all that crap and I'm still nervous about disturbing my curl pattern and all that. But I don't know why, cause I'm not a 2b or anything. A catagory 5 HURICANE couldn't disturb my curl pattern!! It is pretty much set in stone. Still, you know how new naturals are, they want to be as delicate as possible instead of getting all up in there. This hair I don't really KNOW yet. I mean, I had my last perm April 30, 2005. So I've been on the natural path for 6 years.. BUT all those years have been in locs. So I don't know what to do with my natural CURLS just yet. I'll get it. Anyway, all in all... I am loving this product so far. Long as I use it on hair AFTER it's dried. LoL!

Anyway, what else? I'm getting use to the fact that these little things on my head ARE curls and my patch is really growing out and looking more normal... but I have a really big HEAD! LoL! I take pictures of my patch and my hairline is like the size of a football field!! It looks so funny in pictures. That has ALWAYS been a problem of mine. I feel weird about my hairline. It is just so MUCH of it.. I guess I should be happy. I'm not bald.. I have hair to spare.. LoL!




Well, guess I'm done.. For NOW!! Here are some shots of Rebel for the week.. Wish this uploaded faster!






Ciao!

Jen

The SOLO Shopping Trip

The SOLO Shopping Trip

  How awesome it was! And what a haul I came away with! Of course I got the usual groceries, BUT I was able to spend 45 minutes in the hair isle! I know, right?! Shopping sans hubby is really fun! Anyway. I saw the usual Wally-World stuff, Cantu, Just for Me Hair Milk (I'm instinctively turned off by any product with "straightening" right on front of the bottle.), That "Mizini" or what ever that petroleum ladened crap is called. Oh! I looked long and hard at everything. I actually found my Aussie Moist in the pump bottle ($4.84!! I was gonna pay $7 for this crap online!). That made me happy. :) I found Suave Captivating Curls conditioner, so I'm going to review that soon. Got my shower caps and some more satin bonnets...

  Then I saw it. African Pride Olive Miracle Anti-Breakage Formula MAXIMUM STRENGTHENING Moisturizer Lotion. $2.87 for 12oz. It was petroleum free, and smelled WONDERFUL, so I decided I'd try it. Why not? Well I gathered my crap and came back to work to wait for DH to get off. Once parked, I decided to put a little of it in my hair. The Long Aid already had it soft with all the humidity today, so I figured what could go wrong? 

  My.. Hair... melted... Like... BUTTER!!! and the smell in the bottle does not do it justice, cause your hair smells so good after.. Like some sort of candy. I can't place it really, but it smells so sweet and good. And my hair is so SOFT right now!! This isn't a "proper" review, as I like to do those with clean hair. But I think this product is a winner. It had everything I want. For $2.87. Spectacular. :)

The ingredient list is terrific!

Water, soybean oil, propylene glycol, olive fruit oil, Shea butter, coconut oil, jojoba seed oil, avocado oil, ginseng root extract, Rosemary leaf extract, horsetail extract, tea tree leaf oil- just to name a few. There is Lanolin oil, but it's in the last ingredients, as is dimethicone, but I can live with these ingredients so far down the list. 

  I used it like 2 hours ago and my hair is still really soft and that smell is still going strong. (If you don't sweet smells, I'm sure there is a version somewhere with less scent. Then again, this product is so inexpensive there may not be! LoL!) 

 Now, it's dark & I'm looking in my car mirror but looks like my little curls are poppin' all over. This may be good for low humidity days product. I just can't get over the SOFTNESS!! Even DH felt it and was happy at how soft it is. He said the smell was ok. Then said he likes it! I guess this product is a miracle! LoL! If it makes him like ANYTHING about my natural hair it must be a miracle product. 

Holy Grail? Maybe. I have to try it more than once & on clean hair. I'll use it tonight before putting on my satin bonnet and see how it feels in the morning, AND after co-washing to see if I feel the magic still. KeraCare taught me a lesson about declaring Holy Grail before you've truly tried a product start to finish! But it hair lotion, and I do love my lotions. I was looking for B&B castor oil lotion. Glad they were out of it, so I can try this out! LoL! 

 Well, that's all for now I guess. More details after the wash. :)

Ciao

Jen

Friday 6/17/11

Friday 6/17/11

  Well everyone's off but me.. Well not EVERYONE. I'm helping another department out while the rest of the plant takes a 4 day break!! The things Ol' Need Mo will make you do. and it's STORMING out here, so some people are gonna use that as an excuse to not come in... Sooooo, we are likely to be here ALL night! Damn!

  Anyway, Rebel is LOVING all this humidity! It's 67% today and for Long Aid, that is OPTIMUM moisture weather! I also notice my little front poof is a little frizz pot!! It has a defined curl pattern and it's still 4 hair, but I can't really type it far as a letter. 4a maybe? It's not 4c because it is curly, not zig-zaggy. See, this is why I don't letter type my hair. It's just too mixed up for that. But it is type 4- or as I say Afro curls. I like Afro-Curls better. I know not all Africans have the same hair.. But MOST of us do. It paints a picture for a person who isn't actually touching your curls. 

ANYWAY!!! It is a frizzy poofy spot. I'm not really BOTHERED by it. Still, it would be nice if it would coil like the rest of it. But it is a part of Rebel's natural spirit, so I can dig it. AND tomorrow is WASH DAY!! if I get off early tonight by some miracle I am going to Walmart and see if I can pick up a few hair goodies along with groceries. I'll have time to shop if DH isn't with me, and if he is... I'll just have to make it quick! LoL!

  Well, to keep from rambling too much, I'll close my post here. There will be more to come. :p

Ciao. 

Jen

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Wednesday 6/15/11

Wednesday 6/15/11

More drama with DH and the new hair. Remember I told the tale of the very embarrassed sales clerk at Fredrick's about 10 years ago when my hair was real short. Well, for some DUMB ASS reason, I mentioned it to him. Why did I even engage in conversation with him? Especially about hair. Well, I tell the tale to other women who have big chopped and feel bad and not "feminine" because of the new short hair. Not to make them feel worse, just to let them know I've been there and lived. That hair grows back. Well he decided say "Well, you DON'T look good with short hair." 

This is what you come up with... Really? I mean REALLY, DH? 

  Well, after a REAL evil eye moment, I was like "I look good with THIS short hair." I mean a LOT of neck rollin' was taking place ova there, honey child. He was like, "OK." As if to say I DON'T. Needless to say, I was quite heated. But I didn't fuss. Matter of fact, I didn't even want to get into it with him after that. I just said, "Well, hair does grow back." But I was thinking why do you love diggin' these holes? KNOWING when what I decide to do turns out AWESOME you end up looking like a pure-tee asshole. But even without all that, why would you say that to your loved one? "Loved" should I put it. I am my biggest critic. NOTHING looks good on me to me. But this I like. So that MUST mean it's fitting me PRETTY good at very least. And you tellin' me... Essentially, that I'm ugly. Just breaking it down. It is what it is. You tellin' me, that to you... I'm ugly. And this isn't the first damn time he has violated like that. He is TOO quick to say I'm ugly, fat, that I look like a man... But I can probably count the times he's complemented or told me I looked good. I mean without me asking him and he being ready to go, and wanting to just get me out of the house on time. 

  I remember a time when I would have just collapsed into a heaping pile of tears, but I guess I'm different now. I mean, if everyone was standing around me in a circle pointing and laughing and calling me ugly and throwing ROCKS at me calling me a hideous monster and the villagers were running after me with torches, maybe I'd feel so ugly I'd just start crying then. But I'm like. A hair style lasts 6 months befor it grows out unrecognizably. Not worth tears.. Not to me. Sorry...

  I don't know. I feel "manly" with my short hair IF I wear the wrong shirt. Like a plain Tee. But with a nice top. Nothing doing. I just don't hate the way this looks. I imagine as more people see it, I'll get some insults. But even that.. I really just don't care what they say. Anyone who has nothing but bad things to say about me, their input really means nothing to me. Seriously. You have a right to your opinion, but in the end.. Still my head.. I know.  It sucks, right. How they just WASTE breath? LoL! 

  Well, I guess that's it for now. OH! And I decided to keep the mid week rinse in my routine. I think it is a humidity thing as far as the dryness. And I can't get a real result today, as the humidity here is 38%. No humidity for my Long Aid to flourish in my hair. Suuuuucks.. So I just rinsed and added about a dime sized dollop of leave-in. Sealed and put the Long Aid in. It's a little dry still, but I think the rinse is a good thing. I just gotta find something to get moisture back in quickly. I'm a master natural, but my major is in Locs. Loose is new. :p So I'm still working on a routine. But I think the midweek rinse is good. :)

Well, that's it I guess. 

Ciao. 

Jen

Tuesday 6/14/11

Tuesday 6/14/11

  Well I knew it was coming sooner or later. The "fat" day. Yes, today is my "cain't get rite" day. I feel fat and uncomfortable!! Like everything is on me WRONG!! I normally protect and cover my hair with my satin bonnet and scarf. Well the scarf feels like it too tight and in my face, my pants feel way too tight, I just feel bungled up and stuffed in a SAUSAGE casing!! Then Rebel is PUSHING the scarf FURTHER into my eyes! I am just UNCOMFORTABLE PERIOD!! UUUUUUGGGGG!!! 

Ok, enough temper tantrum. :p

  It's getting to be the middle of the week, and on cue Rebel feels sticky!! I'm like "GIRL!! Chill. Don't you remember what happened LAST week when I rinsed you mid week? DRY AS HELL! Sit down some where." LoL! Maybe she actually DOES need to be rinsed out mid week, but I HATE that dry "first day" feel. My first day hair is always dry. I can wash with glycerin and LARD and my hair would STILL be dry and dull on the first day. I don't know, maybe it looks fine, but to me it's a dry frizzy mess!! It's been that way from relaxed days to natural days. The only time it DIDN'T bother me was when I was locked. Because frizz was not an issue to me then. But since I am a Long Aid fan, it gets sticky after a few days.. I guess I'mma have to rinse her out tomorrow. It's weird. She's not sticky when I wake up, BUT after the day and I uncover everything she sticky as hell. It's not an "eeeewwwwww! You sticky!! Nasty!" feeling. Just that "curl activator" feel. Anyone familiar with jheri curls know what it feels like. THAT feeling. Maybe I need to learn to deal with it. That is if I don't want to dry my hair out so much. 

 All in all I guess I'm doing fine. Just a little irritable. I'm still loving the loose life. I have really... REALLY bad HIH!! My hands are ALWAYS finding their way to my curls! LoL! I am forever fluffing or just pulling a curl or SOMETHING! I don't see any damage from it and I actually think Rebel loves it. :) It's funny how i talk about Rebel Like a separate person, right? Anyone who didn't know we name our hair would be like "Is she talking about a cat?" No, Boo Boo. The Fro. LoL! 

I was watching a YouTube video Sunday and this lady was talking about short natural hair and her feelings on it. (not for her. I respect that.) I agreed with her to a certain extent. Until she got to women with long hair seem to "take care of herself". Now, I just cut my hair off, so do I look unkept as result of that? Personally, I don't think people with long hair look any more well "kept" than a person with shor hair. In fact I don't really even notice long hair much. ESPECIALLY long straight hair. I do notice "big" hair. I mean I ain't mad at her as those were her views. She's got a right to her opinion. I just hope the rest of the world doesn't share her views. 

  Then again... Would I "care" if they did? Prolly not. :p As far as not looking good with short hair.. I always thought I looked bad with short hair. Honestly in my opinion I look just as "good" with this new short hair as I did with locs and BETTER than I did with relaxed hair. NOW, I DON'T look that good if I try to wear it in a bob type style short. It makes my head and face look real BIG! but up and away from my face? GOLDEN! I'm in love with this new style. So.. I think it's about finding he right style for your face than focusing on length. Just a thought. 

  Well, it's time to start my day, so I guess it's time to wrap it up. :)

Ciao. 

Jen

Monday 6/13/11

Monday 6/13/11

  Well it's Monday again. Seems like the weekend just FLIES by!! I guess I'm thankful to HAVE a job. Still I would LOVE to be a "house wife" right about now. Tired of slaving! LoL!

  I was just thinking. I wonder what my co-workers and buddies think about my hair? By now they all know it's loose and I've shared with those who ask if I plan to perm it that I do not plan to.... 

But they've never actually SEEN my hair!! 

  Now, I don't go around with my head covered when I'm out and about. ESPECIALLY since I evened it out!! Oh, I FLAUNT them lil' curls!! LoL! But not at work. So I bet they assume I'm just ashamed of my "nappy" ass head. That it looks so bad I won't let anyone see it. LoL! JUST cause they haven't seen it yet. Like THEY are that "important" to me. Not at all. 

Personally, I feel it's none of their business. Plain and blunt. I have no real interest in sharing this leg of the "journey with them. They are not the type of people who would understand why on Earth I wouldn't want straight hair- or care to understand it. Plus in the last year and 4 months of me knowing them they have gone out of their way to show me just how devious and just damn NASTY they can be. I mean, they are worse than ANY seasoned criminal you'll ever run into. I'mma tell ya, they'd give any demon a run for it's money!! So, with all that negativity around all the time, I'd just rather keep my hair covered, as I am a big believer in the connection of energy, hair, and spiritual well being. Negative energy DOES RUB OFF. Can't stop it, but I'm not gonna give them any ammo to spread that negativity. I had actually started covering my locs all the time at work, so this is not new. 

  I imagine at SOME point they'll see it out and about somewhere. A FEW people have actually seen it. Like my head is uncovered when I arrive at work and a few minutes after, so maybe 3 people have seen it. One when it was ALL jacked up!! LoL! But he really wasn't paying much attention. :) They'll see it when they see it. Personally, I don't care if they NEVER see it! LoL!

  Another thought for y'all to chew on. Interracial marriage. Now, I have no beef with it per se. A lot of us wouldn't even BE here if no one was down with the "swirl". But what gets me is guys who marry outside their "race", but still wanna "Fu*k" around with their "race". 

Now I know black women who are happy to do him! Like they are "taking" him back from that (usually) white woman. And they brag and gloat.. But chew on this little nugget. 

He still MARRIED the white woman. All you are good enough to be is his "ho". Don't feel like such an "accomplishment" now, does it? Don't see no ring on yo' finger. In that man's mind, you are "good" enough to fu*k, but not "good" enough to MARRY. Sucks, but it is what it is. 

And I'll leave on that note. 

Ciao. 

Jen

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Fresh and so Clean Clean...

Just a quick post to say... It's so SOFT!! I did a deep condition with Aussie Moist like I said. I kept it covered for like 3 hours probably.. Maybe MORE! But when I took that bag off.. My hair was SOFT and buttery.. It felt so wonderful. Even after I rinsed it out.. Still soft, curls were poppin'.. It was just WONDERFUL! Love it..

here's what I used, and what I did.

I wet my hair a bit and applied a LAVISH amount of Aussie Moist, I mean a good little bit. I then combed it through. This is my detangling session. After I finished combing with my Goodie wide tooth comb (Like $2 and I thought THAT was expensive! LoL!) I put it in a ponytail (yes the top will fit into a ponytail! LoL!) Then covered with a plastic bag and threw on my satin bonnet. And I just let it sit... FOREVER.. I washed it out after about... I think I washed it out about 9pm.. I washed it around 4pm. so that's like 5 hours!! Don't think it takes that long, but that's how long it sat. I then rinsed it out, massaging the scalp as I did.

Once I was done rinsing it all out, I added Vo5 as a leave-in, then I added some KeraCare hair Milk (From that sample kit I got.. I actually like the hair milk. It's OK. I may purchase that.), I sealed with coconut oil, then put in a GOOD amount of my Long Aid. And now.. It's smellin' good and it's so SOFT!! I just had to post that. I love good hair results. :) All naturals do and we LOVE to gush!! LoL!

OK.. Now that's all for now.. Really..

Ciao.

Jen

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Saturday! Wash day!!

I really find myself so HAPPY it's wash day! I love washing and caring for my hair! Even the detanging is fun!! You get to see length and such and my hair is down to my NECK stretched out in the front, but with shrinkage, I have a TWA all the way around. It's wonderful either way. I've had long hair for years, so I'm not in any real hurry for my hair to get long- except for that back side.. I really need some roundness back there! LoL! But as for lenght and length checking and all that crap.. Maybe after a year or so I'll be curious about length and all that. For now I just want healthy hair, and it looks really... REALLY!! Robust and healthy!! :) And the curls are so wonderful.. I have so many springy well defined curls WITHOUT help!! I don't need HOLD, my curls hold all on their own!! All I have to do is co-wash ( I really need to find that big bottle of Aussie at a cheap price, because the regular size is only lasting about 4 washes!! then again at about $2.50 a bottle for a month of washes is pretty good.) Leave-in, seal, and Long Aid for curl definition and moisture (more for moisture than anything, as I said, my curls are really THERE!).. And I'm done.. Curly curls all over the place and happy ME right here, baby!! I imagine it will be more difficult once it gets longer, but for now.. I am on EASY street..

Any problems? Well, this wouldn't be the REAL world if there were NO problems.. My hair is always dry.. Long Aid does the best job with moisturizing, but there are always dry patches. My front is a really dry patch of hair, and I never noticed that. Also, I have loose curls in the front and more defined curls in the middle and around my hears.. The back is pretty much like the front, but from what I can see, DRIER!! Or it looks really dry. It feels pretty fine, but it looks really dry and... Not cute most of the time.. I mean, it's OK and I can live with it, but if I could find something that makes it LOOK moisturized, I'd be happy. I've heard all the hype from different products, but they are ultimately usually for other hair types than my little type 4 AfroCurls. If you have 3c hair your biggest problem is holding a curl and defining curls and eliminating frizz.. With type 4 there are other problems. Like my dryness and dullness that can't be cured with a little serum. I guess I just have to accept that it will always look like that and just be happy it's healthy...

And... Accepted.. :p (Still if I HAPPEN to find the miracle that changes that, I'm no idiot Imma be all over that! LoL!! But I gotta have some proof!! A sample or something.)

I was thinking of revisiting BB Castor oil hair lotion. it worked pretty good when I was relaxed.. I don't want to put bad products in my hair. As Taren of Areyaa said, once you know, you can't go back to NOT knowing. And that is so true. I know I don't want mineral oil and the likes in my hair anymore. I hate that I have to use petroleum jelly on my skin because of my eczema. If I could find a natural oil, I'd stop using that too. I'm thinking of trying to use my coconut oil again, as my eczema is kind of in remission a little bit. Last time it made me break out. The only think I can use is the grease and I HATE it. it makes my skin look so old.. Well, older than normal. I'd love to go back to regular lotion like normal people...

Oh well.. At least my hair can enjoy the good healthy life. LoL! Anyway, I'll research the B&B first then decide, cause it is hella cheap. Like $3 if I can remember correctly and it lasted FOREVER! Way better then Luster's Pink lotion.. More moisturizing and absorbed much better into my hair. Pink lotion took too long to soak in.

I also want to try the other products. The usual Mixed Chicks and the likes of those. Miss Jessie's just really doesn't turn my head. I mean, if I was able to get it free or at a deep.. DEEP discount I'd give it a try, but other than that.. I'll pass.. But Mixed Chicks sound promising as well as Jane Carter solution. Both sound like great products, but I also know they were not made for my hair type, but they might have some benefits. Still, I'd have to try a sample first. Imagine if I'd bought KeraCare only to find out it FLAKED like crazy.. I'd be TOTALLY pissed!

Well, I guess that's it.. I'm doing a deep condition with my Aussie Moist. I must look a hot damn mess. I got my plastic bag on my head... Let me elaborate on that.. My plastic bag.. Is just that.. A SHOPPING BAG!! LoL!! I got my satin bonnet on top just to keep from looking so silly.. I'll have shower caps once I go shopping, but this actually works the same.. Still, I'd rather have the genuine article. I reuse them until they just fall apart or get cluttered with crap I can't wash out.. One cap can last me months. A pack of caps last me over a YEAR! At maybe $1 a pack.. it's worth it. Still, keep in mind.. Them Walmart bags are a good alternative if you're into the green thing. :)

Well, that's it for now. I've rambled too long and I have to get to YouTube to do some video watching!!

Check Ya LATA!!!!


Ciao.

Jen

Friday 6/10/11

Friday 6/10/11

I remember when I began my loc journey and I felt such a connection to nature and the energy of the universe. I felt the strongest connection with trees. Because the branches remindedr me of wild free locs. Mine to be specific. What's funny is you'd think I wouldn't feel that now being loose.

But I still do! A nice bushy tree reminds me of my fro. It's all free and natural. I see my hair in trees. Damn. LoL! Now I'm sure you've heard it all!!

It's amazing where natural hair will take you mentally. I'm sure I wouldn't have these feelings if my hair was relaxed. I ONLY felt somewhat normal wiu relaxed hair when it had started getting "old" and I had it styled BIG! There is just something with me and wild free hair. Maybe it fits my little known persona. I, like my hair, am a rebel at heart so I guess that's why I like it like that. :)

OK. On to the hair talk. Rebel is feeling a little better today. (despite my own hangover!!) She starting to feel soft again.. JUST in time for wash day!! Ain't that always the way? Your hair starts getting "right" just in time to get washed. Or co-washed in my case. But it's gotta be done, so. Is she growing? Maybe. It's only been 20 days since the cut, so it's doubtful there is any noticeable growth yet. She does look a hell of a lot BETTER since I evened it out a little. It's still flat in the back. But it probably would be anyway, as my head is ACTUALLY flat in the back. Not a little flat.. Not a flat "egg". My head has basically no roundness in the back!! LoL! But that's ok I guess. Just another little unique feature that makes me me. But it does look funny as SHIT with the short cut! LoL! I'll survive it. And hair does grow back.

Well, I suppose that's all for today. I'm sure there will be more tomorrow. Oh! And y'all coulda told me I was spellin' CIAO wrong!! LoL! I'm just CHAO'ing my ass off!! Wrong as hell! LoL!

Now!!! Ciao! Ewww.. Looks like it's STILL wrong! LoL!

Jen

Thursday 6/9/10

Thursday 6/9/11

So it's been 19 days loose. Neat. Feels like longer! LoL! Not really in a bad way. Just in a "I can't wait till my hair grows out in the back" way. LoL! Honestly I'm still loving being natural. I may have done more harm than good rinsing my hair yesterday. Today it's kinda dry. Not sure why exactly. I put leave-in on AND sealed. Maybe I didn't seal very well. I really NEEDED that rinse, but I'm not loving this dryness. The humidity may be low today. I do use Long Aid and it is pretty much a glycerine based product. Didn't really check for that. Wouldn't have made a difference, as that is just what I use. It's not like I have a back up product for low humidity days. Probably should look into that though! LoL! Six year natural and I still ain't no expert. First problem is I am just too low maintenance!! Meaning I don't buy lots of luxury items. I keep contemplating ordering some stuff, but I don't know exactly WHAT to order! I mean, my hair is what it is. No product is going to change it's texture or type. So all these products are just over priced hype from my perspective. So I just end up closing the screen. Plus I need curl definition for MY hair and lots of products are just not gonna deliver. Which is weird that I would think that, as my hair has curls with NO product in it. Tiny little well defined curls, but they frizz up and need to be REdefined. If that makes sense. So I'm not trying to make curls where there are no curls. I'm just trying to define what is naturally there. That's more confusing to readers than you know if you actually get it. I've read comments on Kinky Curly that it's not a "miracle worker". If you don't have curls it won't make curls. Duh, right? But no I actually HAVE curls, but they need defining. Ok. Got that clear. LoL!

Anyway, long story short my hair is a little dry today. Still it looks pretty good, so it's not a "bad" hair day. I could probably NOT rinse if I went lighter on the Long Aid through the week. Still. How naked... NEKID water!! Make your hair feel squeaky. I mean, damn. I must be using AWESOMELY natural products for them to just melt away in plain water, eh? Maybe I should feel good about that! LoL!

Well, I guess that's it for the day. This is working out pretty good. Posting in my notepad, then copying and pasting to my blog. I'll have a decent amount of posts for 2011! Oh and I am ALSO 33yrs and 5 mos old today. :p This year is really moving along. I'm already looking forward to the holidays!!

More to come!

Chao.

Jen

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Thursday, June 09, 2011

Wednesday 6/8/11

I hate to keep repeating myself. LoL! But I'm trying to blog more and really journal this part of my journey. I kinda documented my locking process but not as much as I SHOULD have. So now y'all ain't gon be able to get ridda me. :p

Anyway, each day I get a little more comfortable with my curls. Evening it out helped A LOT! I do notice I need a rinse by mid week with Long Aid as it's pretty sticky by then. So today I just hopped in the shower, rinsed it out real good (my hair, not the shower.), and added a little Vo5 as my leave-in. I MEANT to use some of that KeraCare Hair Milk, but I forgot. I sealed with some coconut oil, got dressed, which gave my hair a minute to dry a LITTLE bit, then added my Long Aid. It looked refreshed. :) I did NOT detangle my hair!! I still plan to only detangle once a week. Honestly there is no reason in my mind to do so more than that. My hair isn't matting or really knotting up. So once a week seems fine. BUT I do need to rinse mid week as I said to keep my Long Aid from building up so bad. Not that Long Aid "builds up" per se. But it does... I guess "piles up" is a better way to put it. As it really doesn't cause an ugly hard to wash away film, but because I use so much of it it gets sticky and I just have to remove it.

And how easy is it to remove Long Aid from your hair? Got water? THAT'S ALL YOU NEED!! LoL! The stuff actually RINSES out!! How many curly products can make THAT claim?!! So it's a perfect product for co-washers like myself. I imagine it would work for those using the "Curly Girl" method too, as it is cone free. Not sure exactly if I'm on the Curly Girl method or not. I'll have to research that this weekend. I do exclusively co-wash for the most part and keep detangling to a minimum. Or should I say combing to a minimum. And I must say my little curls are POPPIN'!! I must say, Rebel seems really happy.

DH isn't really saying much. He doesn't like it. Like yesterday, I just bluntly told him, "I cut it.. Can't glue it back on." *DEAD* I tickled myself thinking about it!! LoL! But honestly. I want it to grow long and thick and BIG...

But I like the new short hair... And secretly.. Well maybe not much of a secret... I think I always HAVE loved short hair. Hmmmmmm... Repressed memory much? LoL! I was FOREVER cutting my hair as a youth. Much to my mom's dismay. I was always in trouble about my snippy snippy. :p

Well this has been quite a rant! LoL! Hope I'm not boring y'all too much. :) OH, almost forgot. Keystone Labs is supposed to be sending me a "gift bag". Keystone Labs is the makers of Long Aid and several other hair care products. I think (THINK!! Don't get me to lying! LoL!) they are a black owned company. Or began as one or something. So that's a plus I guess. They make more than Long Aid, I just can't think of them all right now. I know they make "Better Braids" and I think "Better Locs" sprays. I'll have to look it up again and list the products. Or you can go to http://Keystone-Labs.com The also have a facebook page you can like them on.

OK. Done promoting and rambling. More (unfortunately) to come. :)

LoL!

Chao.

Jen

Tuesday 6/7/11

Well I'm getting more comfortable with my little TWA. It's been years since I've had short hair, but I think I'm adjusting pretty well. DH still really doesn't like it, but. Honestly I don't think he ever will really. I don't even think it's short hair that he doesn't like. It's short Afro hair he hates. Not sure how he feels about long Afro hair. He doesn't care for afros that's been established. So I imagine he's gonna really be pushin' perms and weaves once Rebel's big. LoL! But I'm enjoying her baby years. I can just wash and go. With the exception of one extra step (applying product) she's as easy to take care of as she was when she was locked. That is one of the joys of short hair. The ease of care. Detangling is so easy. I think detangling will still be easy, well pretty easy, even when Rebel is longer. For some reason as tight as she is, when that conditioner gets up on her she just melts. And for that I'm thankful. :)

You learn so much about your hair when you're natural. Like when I locked, I would have probably given up on natural hair if I'd stayed loose simply because you cant just comb our curls all willy-nilly. Not sure if you can comb ANY curls like that. And because I couldn't just comb it like I "wanted" to, I would have felt like my hair was the nappiest, ugliest type of hair imaginable. And DH would have been right there with the perm talk. And eventually I would have CAVED. So I think locking was the best decision I could have made. Because NOW , I have 6 years under my belt as a natural. I know more about natural hair AND I accept my hair as it is. And I actually love it because it's what goes with me. It fits me. It's how I was made. The Maker does not make mistakes. So say what you want about my hair. If you don't like it don't look. And if you think it's wrong, you take it up with the One who gave it to me. :)

I've been trimming and I think I finally like how Rebel is shaping up. The back is even shaping up and seems to be growing nicely. I can see how it's gonna shape up once it grows. The back will be shorter than the front, but hella full. Either that or it will all end up the same length. Some how my hair tends to do that. So, either way will be fine. What I wonder, is why doesn't DH try to get in on the ground floor? I mean, like.. REALLY!! When we met, his issue was my weight. And for SOME stupid reason he assumed no one else wanted a fat girl. Well there are lots of guys who that is the LAST issue in their minds. When they started to notice, he was mad and VIOLENT with me. Now I could have handled things better. I was no angel in this situation. Just really not use to attention. But still he assumed no one would want my fat ass. OK. Locs. When I decided to loc and actually started growing them, he told me I look uncared for and my hair looked ATROCIOUS! Even hit me. YESSA! HIT... ME!! About the shit! Yeah, that was a bit FAR if you ask me. But after all that. It grew. FLOURISHED! Became down right REGAL! Complements started flooding in. He still didn't LIKE the locs, but he wanted to be part of the convo all of a sudden. Tellin' peeps how I did it and shit. I'm like. K. Like he was down with it the whole time. Now this. He's said it was butchered. (I say it was incomplete.) It's HIDEOUS! (I think it's awesome. Just needed tweaking.) The best I've been able to get him to give me was saying if I'd left the back unchopped it would have looked kinds neat. (He still wouldn't have really liked it.) As for how it looks after shaping it up a bit, he said it looked "wild". I told him it's cute to me. :) He said "OOOOOK". On any given day, my saying I like something that he doesn't would have sparked such an argument. And God forbid I defended myself. That would have nearly been a FIGHT!

And to think, all THIS drama is JUST with the HAIR!!

I've gone through the hair drama too. The whole "it's just hair" thing use to irk me but because it's not JUST hair, but it is hair. No need to kick someone's ass cause you don't like their HAIR. No need to commit suicide because you get a bad cut! Because your texture isn't what you "wanted". It's yours!! Own it!! I just don't understand how people lose it about YOUR hair! If it's that awful I'm the one looking like a chicken. Shouldn't I be upset? Then if I'm not why should YOU be?

Well time has run out. It's time for me to go in to work. More to come.

Chao.

Jen

A new Way

I've decided a new way to blog. As you may or not know, I have no Internet or cell signal at work. (AT&T really sleepin' on their service in small towns! Maybe that's why Verizon kickin' they ass, right?) But there are times I want to write, but I'm at work.

Well, why not do it on my notes and just copy and paste when I get time. And that's what I'll be doing. :)

Monday 6/6/11

I am feelin' my fro more and more. After I shortened the sides a bit it just looks like I have it short in the back and shaped. Kinda cute. As I have found though, with my build if I wear a regular crew neck tee I look like a MAN! Which if I was going for that it would be OK. I'm not though. So that's not a good look. A v-neck seems to off set that a bit. Which leads me to the realization.

I'm not a very feminine person. (And I'm taking this so WELL, you may be thinking. LoL!) I've always been a kind of tomboy. And I have never been able to just be naturally feminine! It's always been a struggle. A struggle that I apparently just gave up on. Which sucks. It's cute on a small woman. On a big bitch. It tends to be a little intimidating. I'm not real "big". I'm only 5'7" on a good day, but I'm full figured and it's not just in the hips like a lot of black women. I'm pretty even all the way round. And I have wide shoulders. I don't know if they are freakishly wide, but to me.

I'm built like a man. Most men don't look good in Women's clothes. And that is the problem. The stuff other women wear to look pretty and frilly and PINK, just don't fit me right. I have nice boobs, but that will only carry ya so far. I mean you don't wanna showcase the girls all the time. If I had a more feminine form, I wouldn't have to.

I know this isn't totally about hair, but it ties in. Just wait for it. :p

Anyway, now I've got my totally boss TWA. (Flat back and all. LoL!) But will this make it worse? Last time I had short hair, a woman at Fredrick's of Hollywood mistook me for a man. (Which was so funny to DH, but that means she thought we we're a gay couple. Bet if he picked up on that he wouldn't have though it was so damned funny. ) It hurt!! Still does. (See I'm not taking it well at all. LoL!)

Anyway. This doesn't make me feel any different about natural hair or MY hair for that matter. I love being natural. I loved being locked, I love being loose. I "hate" the cut I gave myself. But that's just time to fix. I have time. :) I'm just insecure about myself. My appearance. So I guess this is just a rant. There is no REAL advice here. Except if you see something wrong with your new cut, analyze it and if a snip or two will make it better don't hesitate to just clip it. Might make it better. Might make it worse. But it will be a change. :) I was inspired to try to work with my cut by Taren916 on YouTube. She recently cut her BEAUTIFUL long hair into a TWA. (A BEAUTIFUL TWA!) And that's where I had the "ah ha!" moment of what made my hair look weird was the sudden drop off in the back. A little trim on the sided and near the "drop off point" and now it just looks like my hair is just short. Period. So if you ever read this Taren I owe you a big "thank you"! Be sure to check her out on YouTube guys! Our textures are nothing.. NOTHING!!! Alike. But still she Inspires me so much. Most of the ladies on YouTube do! Just search your hair type, or just natural hair and you'll be there all day watch videos!! Or is that just me? LoL!

Well I guess that's all for now. It's about time for me to go in for work. Oh, and I still haven't revealed my curls to my coworkers yet. They don't get the whole "natural hair movement". So not on their level. When my buddy found I had taken down my locs she suggested I perm it and go straight to a wrap and a weave. LoL! I was like look at this shit. Oh well, I like her pretty well, so you know if she didn't get to see it, these other folks will see it only by accident! LoL! I wear it out when I go somewhere. But here, I just don't feel like the whole "meet the press" thing yet.

K, now I'm done. :p

Chao.

Jen

Monday, June 06, 2011

What the hell? Afro.... Curls????

That's right the blog has a new name. Same address as before. Just with a new name. I felt this was more where my head was right now. I'm still on a journey, but I just wanted to change the name, just as I'm growing and changing. (Hopefully for the better!!)

It's still the same blog. You haven't been hijacked, this isn't a virus or anything taking you to this strangers site.. This is On A Journey. Just now it's called AfroCurls.. LoL!

So I've been shaping Rebel (my fro) up a bit and now she's starting to look normal. (well as normal as Rebel wanna look. LoL!) I took some off the sides and that trimmed it up a bit and now it looks less uneven and less of a drop off in the back. I mean there is a drop off, but my head is flat as shit so that was bound to happen anyway, right? LoL! But it looks more pulled together and less like "a woman in the streets who done rubbed all her hair out in the back." As DH so elloquently put it. LoL! Now it looks like a real cut. Now all it has to do is start growing..

And knowing Rebel it will be towards the SKY! She does love to stick up.

Chao.

Jen

Sunday, June 05, 2011

Gel Experiment.... Epic Fail...

I mixed some Smooth n Shine, Long Aid, and Coconut Oil together... And it was an epic fail.. My hair was not crunchy.. It didn't flake.. I just didn't look good as I wanted, so I had to rinse that stuff out, put some Vo5 in, sealed with coconut oil, and hit up my Long Aid. Now my fro is happy.. Also, I've found that my hair just looks better at this length UP.. Not pulled down around my face. The reason for that is I have a very... VERY fat face! LoL! And with my full face, the hair is shrunken just above or MAYBE at the cheek. And what it does is makes my face just look FULLER.. Being up, I can't say it slims my face, but it doesn't add to the sheer VOLUME of face I have going on.. So I think this will be my style as long as my hair is willing to defy gravity. :)

Also, with all the searching, I think my first thing is my best thing. Just my Long Aid and a nice conditioner as a leave in.. Sealing with coconut oil.. It is just so moisturizing and my little curls are defined.. My hair looks great to ME, which is all that matters.. So why am I looking for products that cost me $30 a pop (they know who they are!! LoL!) When I can get my Long Aid (16oz for $4, 32oz for just $6 most times.), Aussie Moist for co-washes. (14oz, I think I paid $2.50 for it, maybe less.. I can get the pump{33.5oz}around $6 or $7 online and maybe at the right store.), My Vo5 (between $.88 and $1.50 at most places for 15oz.)My LouAna cocount oil (32oz for JUST almost $6) And done.. Just plain done and I've spent at most.. AT MOST.. $20.50 if I buy the big sizes of Aussie and Long Aid and have to buy ALL my products at the same time.. In a nut shell, I can probably take $25 to the store and with tax and all I have ALL my products.. You can not beat that price.. So I think I've found my staples for now.

Not saying I won't try products. Mostly conditioners and the like.. There are products I want to try. But as for all these curl definers and all that.. I think I'm so over that. I do like moisturizers, so that will probably be my PJ addiction. Hair milks, creams and the like. I won't be needing any real heavy stuff until my hair is longer.. That could be 5 years from now.. Wonder how big will my fro be in 5 years? Look how long my locs were.. Can you imagine... Rebel that long.. LoL! She will be fierce for sho'!!

Wonder what I'll be wanting to do with her 5 years from now? I really hope not PERMING her.. I say I will never go back to the perms.. I think I can stick with that.. I remember I use to say locked for life!! And militantly encouraged everyone to join me in this.. And now look.. Not locked.. But I am clearly not dead yet.. Meaning I wasn't locked for life. So I guess the one thing I've learned (Other than patience for my hair.) is to never say never. Never even say always. Take life a day at a time, and just enjoy the scenery.. I loved my time locked, and now I'm loving my time loose and natural. I won't LIKELY perm my hair, as I don't really look that good with straight strands. My hair has always looked better BIG, so a perm probably isn't in my future. So that much I can say.. HOWEVER.. I can't say I'll never flat iron or straighten my hair with heat.. Just not chemicals.. But even THAT is a ways down the line.. I just don't want straight hair.. Sorry..

Well, I guess that's it for now. Just wanted to chime in on how my gel mix worked.. Maybe it will work for twist outs, but I don't have any of those planned for quite some time, so it will be drawered for now. :) Me and Rebel are just gonna hang loose for awhile. LoL!!

Chao.

Jen

Saturday, June 04, 2011

New faster INTERNET...

Maybe I can upload some pictures now!! LoL!

Well, it's been like 3 weeks since I chopped my hair into a nice fro and discovered I'd botched the back.. I've been looking at it, and yes it does look oddly flat, but I am SO over it!! I'm coping and I DO NOT cover my head in public.. Also, I've been wearing it more fro like than curl like.. Like a chunky, curly fro.. Rebel is LOVING her new style. Don't think she LOVES being flat in the back, but she is like "gurrrrrl, I am WAY too fierce to worry bout what's goin' on back there!" LoL!!



I wonder why I was so ashamed of my hair in the past? I know public opinion plays a role when we're younger. I think I was just thinking my hair was different than it was.. I guess in my mind.. "better" than this.. Like the curls were bigger than they are.. And when I discovered they were TINY.. What folks call "naps".. Well.. I was just embarrassed... But now I know.. My hair is as it should be. It IS curly... RRRRRRRRREEEEEEAAAAAAALLY CURLY!! LoL!! And getting to know her, I think me and Rebel will get along just fine now..




Now if Rebel and DH will get along.. I'm not sure.. They are pretty much not speaking to each other right now. I catch DH lookin' at her like.. "UGH!" And she's lookin' at him like "Peesh! What EVA, Nigga." LoL! So they are not tight right now at ALL!! But I think she'll start to grow on him as she gets bigger and fuller in back.. And she will.. And I'll be happy, and she'll be happy, and DH... Well... Don't think men really get us and our hair or this natural hair obsession we have. So that remains to be seen.. If history is any indicator, he won't LOVE it.. But he'll learn to tollerate it at least. He'll stop insulting me so much about it.



OK.. On to products....

No more KeraCare.. I do have the Hair Milk left and I do use it pretty much daily. But I won't be buying anymore as far as I know. I like it better than the Butter Cream, but just because it soaks in faster. The Butter Cream is a little thicker. Still, pretty sure I won't purchase it.. I mean it's OK, but I'm sure I can find a cheaper, locally sold- Or BIGGER size at least cream moisturizer some where.

My Long Aid Curl Activator is doing WONDERFULLY now. It gets sticky nearing wash day, but since I figured out, NO ma'am.. I can't shingle with it.. Too greasy and wet.. BUT if I just work some in.. Back and front.. The stickiness is tollerable and the wetness isn't so bad. Plus it keeps my hair soft and pops those cute little curls PERFECTLY! Plus 16.5oz for less than $4.. Can't beat that. I bought more yesterday. :) It is a keeper.



Washing, you know I'm a co-washer. I only use Shampoo when I really REALLY need to. I used that Cleansing Cream from KeraCare and my hair started to stiffen up.. So.. Even sulfate free stuff dries my hair out. For co-washes I've been using Aussie Moist. I am BLOWING through that little bottle though. I gotta find a bigger size.. The one with the pump would be nice. I also have Vo5 Moisture Milks Conditioner in Passion Fruit Smoothie. It's a staple product, and since it's so light, I can use it as a leave in too. So I'm going to be keeping both those on hand.





Of course my LouAna Coconut oil for sealing. 32oz for just $5!!




Very simple routine so far and I'm hoping I can keep it as simple as it is now.. I know more has to be done once Rebel gets bigger, but for now.. It's pretty simple.. I actually had no idea it was so simple, as DH seems to think I'm making too much of this whole natural deal. But my routine is as simple as it was when I was locked.. AND relaxed!! LoL! Simple gal I guess.

I only comb once a week. I comb when my hair is wet and FULL of conditioner.. I detangle and rinse.. After that, no more combing except MAYBE finger combing while I'm applying product. I've had little shedding so far, so I must be doin' it right. LoL!


And that's it... All I do..

And that's it for the week.. Hopefully the photo upload works now..

Chao..

Jen

Sunday, May 29, 2011

The Aftermath..

Flakes, hardness, dryness. Not sure what happened. The KeraCare started out so great! But ad it dried it got harder- which didn't make me HATE the product. But I can't take flakes. That's a deal breaker for me. I remember flaky gels. (LA Looks anyone?) And that is NOT a good look. So KeraCare did define my curls. (Even DH said it was full of a bunch of little curls. He does not call my hair "curls". So it MUST define!!) There are still lots of curls up there. BUT it's too flaky to wear out any where. I have to rewash it and try to do SOMETHING with it. A real shame too. It was so pretty. I still think I used too much. Don't know HOW, but maybe I did. I'd love to try again, but the only way to do that is to buy the Custard. If it still flakes I'll be pissed for SURE then. But the results started out so awesome. I guess I gotta give 'em another shot. I HOPE it was my mistake. Because if it IS, I've found my (can't believe Imma say it.) Holy Grail product. O_o!!!!

More to come.. :)

Jen

At 100% dry....

Always... ALWAYS wait til it dries to do a review..

Cause this stuff is flaky and HARD now.. The coils are still defined and very... VERY tight.. Which I can live with.. But the whole flaky thing makes me have to wash my hair again tomorrow.. Which really makes me mad.. Like I said I may have used too much, but it's hard to believe you can use too much from a sample pack. I don't know what happened.

The styling products like the Butter Cream and the Hair Milk seem to do a good job glossing.. And that smell has grown on me.. But tomorrow I'm gonna cowash with Aussie and try the smooth n shine and see what that does. From what I hear, it doesn't flake. Flakes just make your hair look dirty and umm, no.. not when I JUST washed my hair.. I ain't havin' it!!

So more tomorrow..

Jen

Saturday, May 28, 2011

The end result...

Well, now my hair is 95% dry.. The KeraCare is crunchy and it looks like it is flaking a little bit, so it loses some points for that.. But my hair is really defined still and I think once I oil it down just right to refresh it will probably take the crunch away and cover the flakies.. So I haven't ruled it out being a wonderful product just cause of some crunch. This stuff gave me the best curls I have ever had naturally. Plus it's not sticky or tacky.. It's just oddly not dry in the back, the part I chopped.. Seems like part of my hair would dry quickly, but I guess it's still very thick, just really short.

I just saw my girl Taren916 in YouTube and she has cut all that beautiful hair off............................ And it makes me wanna cut mine off.. LOL!! Just start OVER! But I'm gonna stick to my guns and just grow my back out again.. I get carried away with cutting.. It was like an addiction. I NEVER HAD HAIR CAUSE I KEPT CUTTING IT OFF!! LoL! No more cutting!! Except for evening out the hair. That's it. Really... Yeah.. No snippy snip.. :p

I was also wondering what takes so long to detangle? I don't have 3a hair and I can detangle in 5 minutes!! I just make sure my hair is real wet and FULL of conditioner.. And my comb slides through with no real problems. I didn't even get much hair loss.. Which you'd think I'd get loads after picking loose locs and all that damage.. I'm not sure.. Maybe my hair is better then I think it is.. Though DH says I think my hair is the best hair in the world... "But it's not." (Oh, hell naw nigga, I ain't forgot that shit either!) I won't say better, cause I don't really think I have "good" hair. I have MY hair. And that's that. But you'd think it would take all day to detangle.. I guess once it's longer with the thickness I have, THEN it will take all day.. Or maybe I just know what to do to my hair and it just don't take long to do it.. Maybe I don't expect TOO much of my hair. It's not gonna get silky by me combing it. So why take HOURS combing it.. Just comb through real quick and be done with it! LoL!

Wow, this has been a busy day for me on blogger!! I really want to document all this stuff.. This is like a grow out challenge, a no cutting challenge and a test of self esteem that will have a massive pay off if I can grow this damn patch out. The first hurdle is getting use to nappiness.. I got use to that with locs. I am not ashamed of naps.. Kinks.. Coils... Curls... WHATEVER you wanna call it. It's just this FUCKIN' PATCH!! And I can't even really get mad at it.. Cause it doesn't really look that bad. It's just outta place. That's all. Did I mention her name is "Rebel"? Yeah... My fro is named Rebel. Cause she's a rebel just like me.. So I guess I'm a rebel through and through! LoL!

As for LongAid.. Not the staple I thought it was anymore.. It had it's time.. And now it's over. It's moisturizing, and I WILL find a use for it.. Maybe when I wear my hair back it will be good for moisture.. I'll keep it on hand, but it won't be a holy grail anymore. And KeraCare cost a little much.. But it is cheaper than Kinky Curly and you can probably use other stuff with it. I still have to try Smooth n Shine as it may be just good for shingling too. Plus there's eco styler which I hear is VERY good... So there are options. Cheap options. My favorite kind!

Well, that's all (I guess) for the day. I'm so excited about this turn out. I just wish I could upload pictures. My internet is acting stupid about uploading pictures. But as soon as I can I'll get yall them pictures. Even Fotki is loading slow, but blogger has been like this for weeks now. I hope the problem gets fixed soon... Until then all yall gettin' is text. LoL!

Chao,

Jen

KeraCare

I just used some of my KeraCare samples and I... am.... FLOORED!! My hair is so defined and curly.. It is so much prettier than I could have ever guessed it could be! My curls are defined and awesome... Now it's still wet, so I'm in the no touch-y stage, but if it looks HALF as good as it does now, I'd say this product line is a winner for our hair. (Black hair)

I'd say my hair type is between 4a and 4b.. Maybe SOME 3c in there some where.. If there was a 3d that would probably be it too. So I do not have biracial hair.. So it's not a situation like I keep running into online with people who probably shouldn't have been relaxing their hair from the beginning saying this product is my holy grail!! And "My hair is that rough stuff." And I'm like.. "O.....K...." No, I got some REAL hair.. (My girl's name is "Rebel", that tells it all. She do what she wants, when she wants.. Just like the person who's head she's on!!LoL!) And I say, this product line is a WINNER!!

OK, what I used...




Cleansing Cream (Step 1)
Aussie Moist Conditioner (I'll explain why I felt I need to use this.)
Leave In (Step 2)
Defining Custard For Curls and Coils (Step 3)



I wet my hair like you normally do in the shower, and applied the Cleansing Cream.. Now, I'mma tell ya, I really don't like the smell of this stuff.. It is pretty natural I guess, but it reminds me of chemicals. It actually smells like Cream of Natures old shampoo. It's even pretty much the same colour. But it doesn't make my hair melt like that stuff use to.. Now, I'm not really a bit shampoo person anyway, Sulfate free or not. So I may just not like Shampoo. But it didn't really make my hair feel very... I don't know.. It just made it kinda squeeky.. I guess I kinda NEEDED it after the Long Aid stickiness.. That stuff HAD to come out.. It's great for moisture I guess, but for curl definition, you need too much and it stays too wet for 2011.. LoL! Still, the shampoo kinda felt like it was stripping too much away..

So I used the Aussie Moist, let it sit while I showered, then rinsed it mostly out..


Dead after that, I slathered on the Leave In... I mean SLATHERED.. Yeah, I had to rinse some out as it was just so white and I just was too heavy handed with it, BUT I noticed that even after I rinsed SOME of it out, my curls were already popping.. With the leave in ALONE, so I felt this might not be a bust after all.

I put a LITTLE coconut oil on my hair. Why? I don't know.. Just felt I needed to seal a little.

Then came the "shingling" with the Defining Custard. Now at first I was like "No I don't like it" because my hair felt a little rough while it was going on. It was like just styling gel in my mind, but I decided to apply it anyway. And when I saw the first curls, I was like "What the hell, give it a try." One thing I noticed is it looks like Kinky Curly Curling Custard. Or at least the pictures of the product I've seen. I mean colour and all. so I'm like OK.. I really don't like the smell still.. I mean, I could probably get use to it.. That is if it's still really nice once it DRIES.. That's the real test, so I'll know in about an hour maybe. But for now the results are wonderful.. BUT.... I do already feel a slight CRUNCH.. My hair is a little hard, but nothing I can't live with.

I'm going to ATTEMPT to add some photos, but blogger has been really screwing with me about uploading photos.. They load really SLOW or not at all, but they will be posted here definately. :)

I hope that photo came through. It took so long, I'm just gonna post them on Fotki.. Check out my fotki for images..

Jen

First week loose

 Well it's been one whole week since I took my last loc loose and chopped the back and everyone is curious as to how my newly loose hair looks. I've been keeping it covered at work because there are just too many HATERS out here! With my bad haircut, I just can't handle needless cruelty right now. 

Other than that I am enjoying being loose. I love the way my hair feels. All tightly coiled and springy. :) Loving that. I'd gladly display it proudly if it weren't messed up in the back. I been got over being ashamed of nappy. I am for the most part of African decent. And like it or not most of us have kinky hair. So I think bitches need to get over it cause I ain't gonna be ashamed of it so why bother picking at it? But if you must, so be it. But a bad haircut is a reality of life. It happens, but it ain't how God made me, (well he DID make me with an uncanny inability to cut my hair straight!) I AM ashamed of that!! LoL! So it will be many months before I reveal this at work. Which sucks. Cause I am SUCH a fan of natural hair and the empowerment if people- especially women...  ESPECIALLY black women being who and what they are. (NO, not GHETTO! My people are not a ghetto people. That's just YOU if you are. LoL!) So me covering mine really sucks, but I'm not showing my butchering. Sorry. :)

But y'all will see it and see my progress as I grow out this "curl-tastrophy!!" (Got that from http://naturallycurly.com There are blogs there. I have one called Tight Curl Down!! Like Black Hawk Down? Is my bad hair experiences blog over there. I also have a group on http://curlynikki.com called The Loose Life.. Check it out if you're already on there. :) I say this because you'll probably have to register and all that if you're not. Though they are great sites.. Naturally curly is more for the loose curl types where as Curly Nikki is more for all curls- loose and tight. So that's a little better for my hair type. :)

Of course I can't forget Nappturality. (http://nappturality.com) There is so much support and info there. A lot of parts of the site are now paid areas where you have to be "Pank" to enter, but membership is pretty cheap. $20 a year I think it was. I will subscribe at some point, but right now money is NOT growin' on trees. LoL! But I'mma get my girl Dee as soon as I can. Someone actually GIFTED me a year of Pankness, so there are some great people up in there. Very little drama.. You'll like it if you haven't been there yet. So much support.

What have I done.. Well, I cut those two really long tails on the sides of my head near the back as I've discovered that they were making the back look shorter and just plain sloppier. After they were cut it looks much much MUCH better!! Still a little weird... But I'll survive and in 6 months it will be no worse for wear.. And hopefully I'll be no worse either. And hopefully DH will have long gotten over it too. HOPEFULLY!

I ordered some samples from the great people at Avlon Industries (http://avlon.com) They sent them free of charge and I will be reviewing some of these products later. Getting a sample is easy, just contact them and ask.. The shipping is free (for now. That may change as more people start requesting samples, as this is a pretty packed little envelope containing 6 1oz samples of products.) I really can't wait to try them out.. :)

As for my hair, I really love touching it though I don't like the way it looks. I do love how with all the chaos there are some wonderful cute beautiful curls. I love that... I mean, no product, nothing.. Just took it out of the pony (Tiny pony.LoL!) and the curls are just there. You gotta love natural hair.. All the confusing chaos.. Just awesome.. And wonderful..

Well, I'm done.. For now...

Thanks for reading.. :)

Jen

Some posts will seem out of place...

I'm posting my posts that were saved as drafts. :) I am gonna post for real today, but the ones that are like 5 YEARS LOCKED!!! And August 27th being 4 years.. Yeah, those are real damned old.. LoL!!

Jen

It's almost here!!

August 27th will be my 4th year with locs! Sometimes it seems like less, sometimes it seems like more.. But it has been quite a ride. :)

FIVE FULL YEARS LOCKED!!!

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Win and a Fail... Swing and a Miss.... Ummm!! But Awwww...

First let me say.. I love my lose hair. It is curly in most places not so much in others, but for the most part it is curly and I love every curl and coil.... I'm glad I did this...

Now for the fail... And it is EPIC.. But not go kill myself epic.. Though DH would think so..

I had 9 locs left.. I'd undone the rest.. So I'm like.. They're in the back.. It will be OK to be shorter in the back.. Sounds sensable right?

Man I cut the locs.. And now the whole BACK... THE WHOLE BACK...

Wait a minute... Yall don't hear me....


THE WHOLE BACK... Is FLAT!! Oh yes.. The locs were up still higher than I thought... So as I predicted.. I ended up SOME HOW looking like a chicken. LoL! And when it's in twists.. Lord have mercy!!! It looks pretty bad... I will be the first to say, I should have picked the rest out or at least another row of locs before chopping.. But what's done is done and I ain't gluing it back on!! I accept my fail and it looks acceptable when it's loose all over after a twist out and I'm sure it will look pretty good pulled back.. I can live with it...


But DH on the other hand... Is being a real D.I.C.K. DICK about the whole thing. I mean he is being a douche.. Yeah, I am using the white folks terms cause that's the only way to sum it up with out being entirely too vulgar.. I mean... He's being an ass about it. I felt bad enough having butchered my 'do... But I can get over it and I know it will grow back. I know .. If I'm really feeling depressed about how it looks.. I have a silk bonnet that I wear to work ANYWAY.. I mean when I was locked and all.. Before that, I liked to cover my head up at work.. Or at least pulled it back... So I'm like I will survive this.. It is just really not that major to me.. I'm sorry I just don't get why he's so mad about ME looking a hot mess.. Especially when the mess ain't all that hot..

Maybe he wants to turn me off to natural hair.. I know he's not a fan of locs or loose natural afro textured hair. But I am.. I'm afro.. I have afro hair.. Deal with it.. But he's not turning me off to natural hair. I know anyone can get a bad hair cut.. Anyone can have a bad hair day and that spans the races, textures, and types.. But hair grows back, and there will be good hair days.. But what kind of person kicks you when you're down. I mean, not a bully- obviously they will but they're assholes and you know that.. You're enemies will do it.. But you know they're assholes and who cares what they think.. But I don't think the one kicking you when you're already down should be someone who claims to love you. Man or woman. You should hurt the ones you claim to love.. Not unnecessarily anyway.. I understand if I was walking around like I'm the SHIT!! And I look like.. Well... SHIT.. I mean unsalvagable shit.. And you said " You know you got a HUGE patch in the back of your head, right?" And I was like "FUCK you! I know I'm the shit, bitch!" Yeah, I'd NEED to be kicked then.. LITERALLY kicked in the ass then.. But when I'm happy I finally got it all down, call myself done got cute... And then you tell me "It's short in the back.. REAL short.." And I EXPLAIN what happened.. I accidentally cut off too many locs.. I should have gone another row at least.. I feel bad... That should.. SHOULD be the end of it pretty much.. I mean, I'd leave it alone and I'm far from Ghandi.. Hell, I ain't even Deepak Choppra!! And I know to just let it go.. And not add insult to injury to a person who obviously sees their error and is trying to recoup..

But no... He goes on and on and on..... And makes me feel TERRIBLE.. UGLY... WORTHLESS..

And this morning it got WORSE.. He said now it looks like an old woman in the streets who done rubbed all her hair out in the back!!! I had it in twists at the time, so the flat overly cut back was in full view.. It did not look awesome, but I'm in TWISTS.. That's not the style I'd wear out.. UNLESS it was covered up... I think that was unnecessary.. And he should be sorry for it, but I now he isn't sorry. In fact, he could care less what I feel about it.. Must be nice.. I can't do that to people. I'm not the first to get a bad cut, and I won't be the last.. So I don't see it as the end of the world. All in all I think I can still work this and in a month the back will be bout long as I was intending it to be.. Well, maybe 3 months from now.. It's not like I go anywhere anyway. Not too many people are gonna see it like this.. And right now, it looks pretty cute.. Patch and all, and I STILL don't plan to let everyone see it right away. First off cause I don't feel like explaining to some dumb ass that I don't plan to relax my hair now that it's loose... For some reason in these parts it's harder to grasp than a woman with locs!! These are real country folks.. And I really don't always mean that as a compliment. Being natural down here is pretty hard..

So I don't see this bad cut as a real issue.. If I had taken the last 9 down he would have had something to say about that too.. Especially when I told him no perms.. I mean, I don't want ANY process.. No perm, no curl, no texturizer, no ANYTHING!! Little hair- especially around my face is just so not me.. I mean, I never had a relaxer that just looked awesome and my head always looks so BIG right after.. I didn't start liking it until after the first couple of washes.. Hate stick straight hair on me. So no.. I don't have a plan to relax it. So he and anyone else (Hear that Mom?) can just sit that shit on the shelf.. LoL!

Oh, and products... I always rave about LongAid... RAVE about it cause when I had a curl I loved it.. And it made an awesome twist out THOUGH all the definition vanished as soon as I tried to separate them, but it was still soft and pretty. I think using the Smooth n Shine would give it more hold, BUT... What I had forgotten about with LongAid... It... Is... WET!! OMG, I woke up STICKY!!! Yes.. STICKY!!! I was just sticky.. My arms, my face, my HANDS.. I went to the bathroom (TMI, I know..) And I was like "Damn... STICKY!!" I had to wash my hands, not just for hygiene.. But for STICKINESS!! I guess I gotta find a better way, eh? Something.. Not so sticky.. Or maybe I should just use less.. I kinda plastered it last night. I call myself shingled.. Let it air dry.. It never did. It's still wet.. Which is just from the LongAid.. My hair don't hold water anymore.. When I was little it would stay wet for a whole day, now the water just runs off it.. So LongAid might not be the savior I assumed it was.

I'm still STICKY.. LoL!!


Well, that's all.. Blogger is being a tool today and not uploading my pics.. I'll get 'em to yall as soon as I can. You can always get them off my fotki.

Jen

Pictures

It is DONE!!

And I am LOOSE!! I finally got it all done. I chopped 9 locs, but the rest I just picked out. (The last 9 I just couldn't take it anymore!! My hands are working hands so they were like UNCLE!! LoL!) Now it's uneven, but it looks pretty good. I like it. I just smell like old man cause of the LongAid. LoL! But I can tell ya, that wash and condition felt AWESOME!! I can't wait to try new products.. LoL! Already the product junky!

Will I even go back to locs? Possibly. It's not out of the question, but for now.. I'm gonna enjoy the CRAP outta these curls!!

Photos to come!!

Jen

Monday, May 16, 2011

Half Way!!

I'm happy to report I am over half done taking down the locs! I think I have 20 left out of 52!! I washed that loose hair (Yes, lather and all. It's RARE, but I had to get 5 years worth of gunk off it!!) and that hair was so awesome!! It's so much better than I could have imagined! There were all these little curls in areas I looked to be only naps.. However some areas I looked for to be really curly are wavy at best, but it still looks nice. I had my other hair already in twists, I took them loose to see what my twist outs are gonna look like and I was FLOORED!! It was kinda messy, I mean it was freshly unlocked, not yet washed and no product was used to twist them with, so given all of that... It was awesome!! My hair is gonna really be beautiful.. Not that my locks aren't beautiful. And I will always be glad I grew them. But now it's time to get use to my loose hair. I mean, one day I'll be blessed with a little one.. And if I'm locked all the time, how will I know how to deal with her hair (If it's a girl that is.) I went straight from perm to locs.. Never really dealing with my hair.

Which means I am LOST! LoL! But I'll pull it together. :)

Jen

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Thinking Back...

I was just thinking about a situation a long time ago. I had short hair then, and my husband and I went to Fredricks of Hollywood, and the clerk said as we entered with her big white girl grin, "What can I help you gentlemen with today?" Last time I looked I was not a gentleman.. She was embarassed as hell when she realized her mistake, but that is something to think about. The persuit of being FEMININE!! I seem to have lost mine somewhere along the line. My bastard ass husband blamed my short hair and clothing. I was wearing his leather jacket.. Or my build.. Can't do squat about that. I mean I can lose some weight, but I'm still gonna have the same wide shoulders as I do now, just bonier I guess.. I don't know.. I don't think he really understands what a woman feels.. Nor does he care to. I guess that's why I've got my blogs..

But now I'm taking down my locks.. Oh, and that was a major MAJOR issue.. My locking.. He called me all kinds of dikes and lesbians, and thugs.. It just wasn't even damn funny!! If it wasn't for my twilight sleep-esq love of my locks, I don't think I would have made it. I would have ran screaming back to the perm! But I took the red pill and all was revealed..

Or was it the blue one? It was a Matrix thing.. Or Alice in Wonderland.. Hell you get it..

I can't see myself getting a perm again.. Maybe one day a texturizer, but I don't even see that on the horizon. However when DH found out I was planning to take down my locks, his gears started turning immediately...

Towards me getting a perm... And when I said no... He flipped out. I mean called me all kinds of stupid bitches and everything.. And that I wasn't gonna like my regular hair, and I wasn't gonna be able to comb it and it was gonna be hideous, and ugly, and nappy and hard.. I mean just the most hurtful things about something I was born with, that is a part of my most natural, REAL self. Hmmm.. Seems he says a lot of hurtful things... But this is a hair blog, so I'm gonna stick with hair feelings...

I know my hair is not silky. I'm not white, and I'm not one of those first generation mixed kids.. I KNOW what my hair looks like.. But in my mind our hair is not ugly.. I mean if we don't do anything to it just let it stay dry and crusty, yeah that's ugly. But it would be even on his so called perfect type of hair.. But I've seen some hair that would be called the "rough stuff" and it looks FAB!!! Beautiful.. But those who think like him would say that bitch needs a perm, or that nigga needs a hair cut.. It's plain lunacy!!

I guess the point of all this, other than to just vent is you can't let others define you. You can't let people make you do things that you don't want to do. YOU KNOW YOU!! And I know "naps" are just tiny curls. They should be treated like curls.. I actually hate the term nappy.. I know I'll get a true flogging for that, but I do. Because it implies that our curls are lesser than a white persons or a mixed person- or anyone with big open curls and silky hair. That our hair is ugly and shouldn't be concidered hair.. It's just some nappy ass crap that needs to be covered or altered. Just plain vulgar. I just don't like the inplications.. That's all...

So I'm not using nappy anymore. I'm using curly from now on.. I may still use coily... And I'm not sure about coily either. But as I have a group called Springy Coils, I have to stand by coily for now. FOR... NOW.... LoL! I'm thinking of changing the title to something else that reflects this more equal status movement... I'll let yall know soon...

Well, I guess I'm done rambling for now. I'm going to try to get some picking done.. Maybe I'll get a couple taken down this weekend.. I can't wait to see my little springs free and thick.. Gonna be a real ride...

More to come...


Jen

Sunday, May 01, 2011

Natural Thoughts....

I have been stalking hair vlogs on YouTube and looking at all the product reviews.. Just having me a good time... Now not all hair I see is.... PLEASING to my eye.. But beauty is in the eye of the beholder I guess and far be it from me, being a new Ne-Ga-Ro (Like how I did that.. Keep saying it.. You'll get it..), to deter anyone from a more natural life.. You're beautiful because you are as you are....


But even with all that.... I've noticed something....

Most highlighted naturals....

A. Have hair that shouldn't have been processed in the first place...

AND

B. Are thin or have thin or small faces or heads..

So now then there's me.. Sure I was fine with my locks.. I was so in the romance and bliss and sugar snaps and farts stage of being natural that I just went with it.. Big ol' head and fat face and all.... I didn't care about hard hair cause I wanted it as hard and kinky as possible because (I believed)that would make me lock faster and make awesome locks.. And it did. My locks are awesome.. Lint and all. LoL! But a heavy woman can have locks.. Hell, stereotypically we are the ones with them. (The stereotype is not flattering.) But this is gonna be my natural, tightly curled, busy hair... On my fat head... Around my fat face.... kinda scary...

Fear won't stop me.. But has anyone else noticed this? Most of the naturals online look like models!! I'm wondering what will I do looking like regular old folks? I just took loose my 5th lock and am almost done with my 6th. (Yeah, I'm on a roll this weekend!! LoL!) Since I'm not destroying my already carpal tunnel ridden hands anymore on that debone line, I can take them loose more often, so probably in another month or 2 I'm gonna be totally loose!! I have to get some help with this or I'll be rocking some fierce hair.. With my HEAD DOWN!!! Not a good look..

So I have to get some confidence pretty damned fast... Still.. Has anyone noticed the whole "gotta be skinny and cute for natural hair" thing? Or is it just me?

Later..

Jen

Saturday, April 30, 2011

Oh the hard... Hard... HARD....

WORK!!! Locs are hard to take down.. I see why people cut them instead of picking them apart...


BUT....

Smart ass me, decided to not cut my hair again... Well, not MAJOR cutting anyway. Maybe it's spiritual.. Maybe I just don't look good with small hair.. Either way.. No cutting... Right...


Anyway, I'm taking down I think my 5th loc. Which sucks cause when you're done, it's so skinny that you can join two.. NO you HAVE to join two just to get a good sized twist.. Seems not worth it and if you DON'T have a cutting vice, I say go ahead and just chop.. At least half the lock off if they are long as mine. (They're bra band length in some spots.)I would NOT be mad at cha. LoL!


But here I am picking. I found a small toothed comb in the bathroom (Might be mine... Maybe have been here when I moved in.. Not sure.) and I have my shoe needles or craft.. What the hell do you call 'em... NEEDLE POINT needles.. My hot conditioner water.. And I'm just picking... And the worry sets in....




These curls, though curls they are.. (I DO know that naps are just tiny curls..) They are little and they are... Kinda course... And in other spots they are kinda frizzy.. And I am a little scared as to how I'm going to pull all that into a nice head of hair.. Sure all hair is good hair.. But looking like a chicken is not a good look, boo boo... I have some starter products.. My LongAid activator, my Smooth N Shine gel... Some coconut oil as I've always used.. Or at least in the last couple years. But I'm thinking I'm going to need lots of products and mostly stick to twist outs instead of wash and goes cause I get loads of shrinkage, which is not entirely bad cause I get my big hair like that... But also because it would just friggin tangle so terribly that I'd never get it loose- I'd RElock and that's not what I'm going through all these hours of unpicking to do... Well, at least not right now... It's not out of the question to lock again.. Just right now.. I am wanting to dig these curls and coils for a minute... :)

DH is still thinking I need a perm or a texturizer or to texlax my hair for it to look right... Now, you know I am against chemicals in the hair and I'm going to try to prove him wrong.. I think I can.. But I don't condemn those who decide to process their hair anymore.. It's not worth the effort.. It's almost like telling white girls you don't need blond hair and double D's to be hot.. It just will end with you making them feel bad AND ugly because they can't grasp it and you'll just be damn TIRED.. Everyone knows what they need to do at that time to feel better.. Let 'em do it.. They'll come around sooner or later, and realize that "Hey.. I was made just as I was intended to be and whoever doesn't like it can suck it!" LoL! In any case, I think I'll convince MYSELF that my little curls are beautiful LOOOOOONG before I can convince DH that they are cute and beautiful and just as awesome as them big old silky curls. But it won't be easy.. Remember what I went through with him when I was locking? Yeah.. I'm looking to be in for the same kinda crap..

Anyway, I guess I'm done rambling.. I got over here to rest my hands and kinda give yall a taste of what I'm up to with the locked to loose journey. I should be able to get some taken down since I'm off for a week.. VACATION baby!! LoL!!


More to come.... :)

Jen

Monday, April 11, 2011

Surprise!!!!

I took some pictures!!! Yeah! As you know I took about 4 locks loose and I've been practicing on that hair to see the texture and how much product it needs (LOADS!!) and I must say.. I'm loving this hair... I can't wait to get it all taken down!! However I do see I'm going to have to load on the gel or cream or WHATEVER I decide to use to define curl to control FRIZZ!!! My hair has always been very frizzy so I don't see why it would be any different as an adult. :p Anyway, a few impromptu pictures...

I just took loose a twist, washed it...

Used

Vo5 as a leave in
LongAid Curl Activator Gel
under
Smooth n Shine Gellations Styling Gel

I didn't use much because for such a small section, I didn't think it needed it... It needed it. After 5 minutes the frizz started in.. But the ends were AWESOME!! More product and it would have been IN THERE! LoL! I think my hair isn't a 4b/c as I thought either.. It is a mix of 3c and 4a-c. :p

Anyway, here are the pics..


Hopefully there will be many more to come. :)

Jen