Sunday, May 29, 2011

The Aftermath..

Flakes, hardness, dryness. Not sure what happened. The KeraCare started out so great! But ad it dried it got harder- which didn't make me HATE the product. But I can't take flakes. That's a deal breaker for me. I remember flaky gels. (LA Looks anyone?) And that is NOT a good look. So KeraCare did define my curls. (Even DH said it was full of a bunch of little curls. He does not call my hair "curls". So it MUST define!!) There are still lots of curls up there. BUT it's too flaky to wear out any where. I have to rewash it and try to do SOMETHING with it. A real shame too. It was so pretty. I still think I used too much. Don't know HOW, but maybe I did. I'd love to try again, but the only way to do that is to buy the Custard. If it still flakes I'll be pissed for SURE then. But the results started out so awesome. I guess I gotta give 'em another shot. I HOPE it was my mistake. Because if it IS, I've found my (can't believe Imma say it.) Holy Grail product. O_o!!!!

More to come.. :)

Jen

At 100% dry....

Always... ALWAYS wait til it dries to do a review..

Cause this stuff is flaky and HARD now.. The coils are still defined and very... VERY tight.. Which I can live with.. But the whole flaky thing makes me have to wash my hair again tomorrow.. Which really makes me mad.. Like I said I may have used too much, but it's hard to believe you can use too much from a sample pack. I don't know what happened.

The styling products like the Butter Cream and the Hair Milk seem to do a good job glossing.. And that smell has grown on me.. But tomorrow I'm gonna cowash with Aussie and try the smooth n shine and see what that does. From what I hear, it doesn't flake. Flakes just make your hair look dirty and umm, no.. not when I JUST washed my hair.. I ain't havin' it!!

So more tomorrow..

Jen

Saturday, May 28, 2011

The end result...

Well, now my hair is 95% dry.. The KeraCare is crunchy and it looks like it is flaking a little bit, so it loses some points for that.. But my hair is really defined still and I think once I oil it down just right to refresh it will probably take the crunch away and cover the flakies.. So I haven't ruled it out being a wonderful product just cause of some crunch. This stuff gave me the best curls I have ever had naturally. Plus it's not sticky or tacky.. It's just oddly not dry in the back, the part I chopped.. Seems like part of my hair would dry quickly, but I guess it's still very thick, just really short.

I just saw my girl Taren916 in YouTube and she has cut all that beautiful hair off............................ And it makes me wanna cut mine off.. LOL!! Just start OVER! But I'm gonna stick to my guns and just grow my back out again.. I get carried away with cutting.. It was like an addiction. I NEVER HAD HAIR CAUSE I KEPT CUTTING IT OFF!! LoL! No more cutting!! Except for evening out the hair. That's it. Really... Yeah.. No snippy snip.. :p

I was also wondering what takes so long to detangle? I don't have 3a hair and I can detangle in 5 minutes!! I just make sure my hair is real wet and FULL of conditioner.. And my comb slides through with no real problems. I didn't even get much hair loss.. Which you'd think I'd get loads after picking loose locs and all that damage.. I'm not sure.. Maybe my hair is better then I think it is.. Though DH says I think my hair is the best hair in the world... "But it's not." (Oh, hell naw nigga, I ain't forgot that shit either!) I won't say better, cause I don't really think I have "good" hair. I have MY hair. And that's that. But you'd think it would take all day to detangle.. I guess once it's longer with the thickness I have, THEN it will take all day.. Or maybe I just know what to do to my hair and it just don't take long to do it.. Maybe I don't expect TOO much of my hair. It's not gonna get silky by me combing it. So why take HOURS combing it.. Just comb through real quick and be done with it! LoL!

Wow, this has been a busy day for me on blogger!! I really want to document all this stuff.. This is like a grow out challenge, a no cutting challenge and a test of self esteem that will have a massive pay off if I can grow this damn patch out. The first hurdle is getting use to nappiness.. I got use to that with locs. I am not ashamed of naps.. Kinks.. Coils... Curls... WHATEVER you wanna call it. It's just this FUCKIN' PATCH!! And I can't even really get mad at it.. Cause it doesn't really look that bad. It's just outta place. That's all. Did I mention her name is "Rebel"? Yeah... My fro is named Rebel. Cause she's a rebel just like me.. So I guess I'm a rebel through and through! LoL!

As for LongAid.. Not the staple I thought it was anymore.. It had it's time.. And now it's over. It's moisturizing, and I WILL find a use for it.. Maybe when I wear my hair back it will be good for moisture.. I'll keep it on hand, but it won't be a holy grail anymore. And KeraCare cost a little much.. But it is cheaper than Kinky Curly and you can probably use other stuff with it. I still have to try Smooth n Shine as it may be just good for shingling too. Plus there's eco styler which I hear is VERY good... So there are options. Cheap options. My favorite kind!

Well, that's all (I guess) for the day. I'm so excited about this turn out. I just wish I could upload pictures. My internet is acting stupid about uploading pictures. But as soon as I can I'll get yall them pictures. Even Fotki is loading slow, but blogger has been like this for weeks now. I hope the problem gets fixed soon... Until then all yall gettin' is text. LoL!

Chao,

Jen

KeraCare

I just used some of my KeraCare samples and I... am.... FLOORED!! My hair is so defined and curly.. It is so much prettier than I could have ever guessed it could be! My curls are defined and awesome... Now it's still wet, so I'm in the no touch-y stage, but if it looks HALF as good as it does now, I'd say this product line is a winner for our hair. (Black hair)

I'd say my hair type is between 4a and 4b.. Maybe SOME 3c in there some where.. If there was a 3d that would probably be it too. So I do not have biracial hair.. So it's not a situation like I keep running into online with people who probably shouldn't have been relaxing their hair from the beginning saying this product is my holy grail!! And "My hair is that rough stuff." And I'm like.. "O.....K...." No, I got some REAL hair.. (My girl's name is "Rebel", that tells it all. She do what she wants, when she wants.. Just like the person who's head she's on!!LoL!) And I say, this product line is a WINNER!!

OK, what I used...




Cleansing Cream (Step 1)
Aussie Moist Conditioner (I'll explain why I felt I need to use this.)
Leave In (Step 2)
Defining Custard For Curls and Coils (Step 3)



I wet my hair like you normally do in the shower, and applied the Cleansing Cream.. Now, I'mma tell ya, I really don't like the smell of this stuff.. It is pretty natural I guess, but it reminds me of chemicals. It actually smells like Cream of Natures old shampoo. It's even pretty much the same colour. But it doesn't make my hair melt like that stuff use to.. Now, I'm not really a bit shampoo person anyway, Sulfate free or not. So I may just not like Shampoo. But it didn't really make my hair feel very... I don't know.. It just made it kinda squeeky.. I guess I kinda NEEDED it after the Long Aid stickiness.. That stuff HAD to come out.. It's great for moisture I guess, but for curl definition, you need too much and it stays too wet for 2011.. LoL! Still, the shampoo kinda felt like it was stripping too much away..

So I used the Aussie Moist, let it sit while I showered, then rinsed it mostly out..


Dead after that, I slathered on the Leave In... I mean SLATHERED.. Yeah, I had to rinse some out as it was just so white and I just was too heavy handed with it, BUT I noticed that even after I rinsed SOME of it out, my curls were already popping.. With the leave in ALONE, so I felt this might not be a bust after all.

I put a LITTLE coconut oil on my hair. Why? I don't know.. Just felt I needed to seal a little.

Then came the "shingling" with the Defining Custard. Now at first I was like "No I don't like it" because my hair felt a little rough while it was going on. It was like just styling gel in my mind, but I decided to apply it anyway. And when I saw the first curls, I was like "What the hell, give it a try." One thing I noticed is it looks like Kinky Curly Curling Custard. Or at least the pictures of the product I've seen. I mean colour and all. so I'm like OK.. I really don't like the smell still.. I mean, I could probably get use to it.. That is if it's still really nice once it DRIES.. That's the real test, so I'll know in about an hour maybe. But for now the results are wonderful.. BUT.... I do already feel a slight CRUNCH.. My hair is a little hard, but nothing I can't live with.

I'm going to ATTEMPT to add some photos, but blogger has been really screwing with me about uploading photos.. They load really SLOW or not at all, but they will be posted here definately. :)

I hope that photo came through. It took so long, I'm just gonna post them on Fotki.. Check out my fotki for images..

Jen

First week loose

 Well it's been one whole week since I took my last loc loose and chopped the back and everyone is curious as to how my newly loose hair looks. I've been keeping it covered at work because there are just too many HATERS out here! With my bad haircut, I just can't handle needless cruelty right now. 

Other than that I am enjoying being loose. I love the way my hair feels. All tightly coiled and springy. :) Loving that. I'd gladly display it proudly if it weren't messed up in the back. I been got over being ashamed of nappy. I am for the most part of African decent. And like it or not most of us have kinky hair. So I think bitches need to get over it cause I ain't gonna be ashamed of it so why bother picking at it? But if you must, so be it. But a bad haircut is a reality of life. It happens, but it ain't how God made me, (well he DID make me with an uncanny inability to cut my hair straight!) I AM ashamed of that!! LoL! So it will be many months before I reveal this at work. Which sucks. Cause I am SUCH a fan of natural hair and the empowerment if people- especially women...  ESPECIALLY black women being who and what they are. (NO, not GHETTO! My people are not a ghetto people. That's just YOU if you are. LoL!) So me covering mine really sucks, but I'm not showing my butchering. Sorry. :)

But y'all will see it and see my progress as I grow out this "curl-tastrophy!!" (Got that from http://naturallycurly.com There are blogs there. I have one called Tight Curl Down!! Like Black Hawk Down? Is my bad hair experiences blog over there. I also have a group on http://curlynikki.com called The Loose Life.. Check it out if you're already on there. :) I say this because you'll probably have to register and all that if you're not. Though they are great sites.. Naturally curly is more for the loose curl types where as Curly Nikki is more for all curls- loose and tight. So that's a little better for my hair type. :)

Of course I can't forget Nappturality. (http://nappturality.com) There is so much support and info there. A lot of parts of the site are now paid areas where you have to be "Pank" to enter, but membership is pretty cheap. $20 a year I think it was. I will subscribe at some point, but right now money is NOT growin' on trees. LoL! But I'mma get my girl Dee as soon as I can. Someone actually GIFTED me a year of Pankness, so there are some great people up in there. Very little drama.. You'll like it if you haven't been there yet. So much support.

What have I done.. Well, I cut those two really long tails on the sides of my head near the back as I've discovered that they were making the back look shorter and just plain sloppier. After they were cut it looks much much MUCH better!! Still a little weird... But I'll survive and in 6 months it will be no worse for wear.. And hopefully I'll be no worse either. And hopefully DH will have long gotten over it too. HOPEFULLY!

I ordered some samples from the great people at Avlon Industries (http://avlon.com) They sent them free of charge and I will be reviewing some of these products later. Getting a sample is easy, just contact them and ask.. The shipping is free (for now. That may change as more people start requesting samples, as this is a pretty packed little envelope containing 6 1oz samples of products.) I really can't wait to try them out.. :)

As for my hair, I really love touching it though I don't like the way it looks. I do love how with all the chaos there are some wonderful cute beautiful curls. I love that... I mean, no product, nothing.. Just took it out of the pony (Tiny pony.LoL!) and the curls are just there. You gotta love natural hair.. All the confusing chaos.. Just awesome.. And wonderful..

Well, I'm done.. For now...

Thanks for reading.. :)

Jen

Some posts will seem out of place...

I'm posting my posts that were saved as drafts. :) I am gonna post for real today, but the ones that are like 5 YEARS LOCKED!!! And August 27th being 4 years.. Yeah, those are real damned old.. LoL!!

Jen

It's almost here!!

August 27th will be my 4th year with locs! Sometimes it seems like less, sometimes it seems like more.. But it has been quite a ride. :)

FIVE FULL YEARS LOCKED!!!

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Win and a Fail... Swing and a Miss.... Ummm!! But Awwww...

First let me say.. I love my lose hair. It is curly in most places not so much in others, but for the most part it is curly and I love every curl and coil.... I'm glad I did this...

Now for the fail... And it is EPIC.. But not go kill myself epic.. Though DH would think so..

I had 9 locs left.. I'd undone the rest.. So I'm like.. They're in the back.. It will be OK to be shorter in the back.. Sounds sensable right?

Man I cut the locs.. And now the whole BACK... THE WHOLE BACK...

Wait a minute... Yall don't hear me....


THE WHOLE BACK... Is FLAT!! Oh yes.. The locs were up still higher than I thought... So as I predicted.. I ended up SOME HOW looking like a chicken. LoL! And when it's in twists.. Lord have mercy!!! It looks pretty bad... I will be the first to say, I should have picked the rest out or at least another row of locs before chopping.. But what's done is done and I ain't gluing it back on!! I accept my fail and it looks acceptable when it's loose all over after a twist out and I'm sure it will look pretty good pulled back.. I can live with it...


But DH on the other hand... Is being a real D.I.C.K. DICK about the whole thing. I mean he is being a douche.. Yeah, I am using the white folks terms cause that's the only way to sum it up with out being entirely too vulgar.. I mean... He's being an ass about it. I felt bad enough having butchered my 'do... But I can get over it and I know it will grow back. I know .. If I'm really feeling depressed about how it looks.. I have a silk bonnet that I wear to work ANYWAY.. I mean when I was locked and all.. Before that, I liked to cover my head up at work.. Or at least pulled it back... So I'm like I will survive this.. It is just really not that major to me.. I'm sorry I just don't get why he's so mad about ME looking a hot mess.. Especially when the mess ain't all that hot..

Maybe he wants to turn me off to natural hair.. I know he's not a fan of locs or loose natural afro textured hair. But I am.. I'm afro.. I have afro hair.. Deal with it.. But he's not turning me off to natural hair. I know anyone can get a bad hair cut.. Anyone can have a bad hair day and that spans the races, textures, and types.. But hair grows back, and there will be good hair days.. But what kind of person kicks you when you're down. I mean, not a bully- obviously they will but they're assholes and you know that.. You're enemies will do it.. But you know they're assholes and who cares what they think.. But I don't think the one kicking you when you're already down should be someone who claims to love you. Man or woman. You should hurt the ones you claim to love.. Not unnecessarily anyway.. I understand if I was walking around like I'm the SHIT!! And I look like.. Well... SHIT.. I mean unsalvagable shit.. And you said " You know you got a HUGE patch in the back of your head, right?" And I was like "FUCK you! I know I'm the shit, bitch!" Yeah, I'd NEED to be kicked then.. LITERALLY kicked in the ass then.. But when I'm happy I finally got it all down, call myself done got cute... And then you tell me "It's short in the back.. REAL short.." And I EXPLAIN what happened.. I accidentally cut off too many locs.. I should have gone another row at least.. I feel bad... That should.. SHOULD be the end of it pretty much.. I mean, I'd leave it alone and I'm far from Ghandi.. Hell, I ain't even Deepak Choppra!! And I know to just let it go.. And not add insult to injury to a person who obviously sees their error and is trying to recoup..

But no... He goes on and on and on..... And makes me feel TERRIBLE.. UGLY... WORTHLESS..

And this morning it got WORSE.. He said now it looks like an old woman in the streets who done rubbed all her hair out in the back!!! I had it in twists at the time, so the flat overly cut back was in full view.. It did not look awesome, but I'm in TWISTS.. That's not the style I'd wear out.. UNLESS it was covered up... I think that was unnecessary.. And he should be sorry for it, but I now he isn't sorry. In fact, he could care less what I feel about it.. Must be nice.. I can't do that to people. I'm not the first to get a bad cut, and I won't be the last.. So I don't see it as the end of the world. All in all I think I can still work this and in a month the back will be bout long as I was intending it to be.. Well, maybe 3 months from now.. It's not like I go anywhere anyway. Not too many people are gonna see it like this.. And right now, it looks pretty cute.. Patch and all, and I STILL don't plan to let everyone see it right away. First off cause I don't feel like explaining to some dumb ass that I don't plan to relax my hair now that it's loose... For some reason in these parts it's harder to grasp than a woman with locs!! These are real country folks.. And I really don't always mean that as a compliment. Being natural down here is pretty hard..

So I don't see this bad cut as a real issue.. If I had taken the last 9 down he would have had something to say about that too.. Especially when I told him no perms.. I mean, I don't want ANY process.. No perm, no curl, no texturizer, no ANYTHING!! Little hair- especially around my face is just so not me.. I mean, I never had a relaxer that just looked awesome and my head always looks so BIG right after.. I didn't start liking it until after the first couple of washes.. Hate stick straight hair on me. So no.. I don't have a plan to relax it. So he and anyone else (Hear that Mom?) can just sit that shit on the shelf.. LoL!

Oh, and products... I always rave about LongAid... RAVE about it cause when I had a curl I loved it.. And it made an awesome twist out THOUGH all the definition vanished as soon as I tried to separate them, but it was still soft and pretty. I think using the Smooth n Shine would give it more hold, BUT... What I had forgotten about with LongAid... It... Is... WET!! OMG, I woke up STICKY!!! Yes.. STICKY!!! I was just sticky.. My arms, my face, my HANDS.. I went to the bathroom (TMI, I know..) And I was like "Damn... STICKY!!" I had to wash my hands, not just for hygiene.. But for STICKINESS!! I guess I gotta find a better way, eh? Something.. Not so sticky.. Or maybe I should just use less.. I kinda plastered it last night. I call myself shingled.. Let it air dry.. It never did. It's still wet.. Which is just from the LongAid.. My hair don't hold water anymore.. When I was little it would stay wet for a whole day, now the water just runs off it.. So LongAid might not be the savior I assumed it was.

I'm still STICKY.. LoL!!


Well, that's all.. Blogger is being a tool today and not uploading my pics.. I'll get 'em to yall as soon as I can. You can always get them off my fotki.

Jen

Pictures

It is DONE!!

And I am LOOSE!! I finally got it all done. I chopped 9 locs, but the rest I just picked out. (The last 9 I just couldn't take it anymore!! My hands are working hands so they were like UNCLE!! LoL!) Now it's uneven, but it looks pretty good. I like it. I just smell like old man cause of the LongAid. LoL! But I can tell ya, that wash and condition felt AWESOME!! I can't wait to try new products.. LoL! Already the product junky!

Will I even go back to locs? Possibly. It's not out of the question, but for now.. I'm gonna enjoy the CRAP outta these curls!!

Photos to come!!

Jen

Monday, May 16, 2011

Half Way!!

I'm happy to report I am over half done taking down the locs! I think I have 20 left out of 52!! I washed that loose hair (Yes, lather and all. It's RARE, but I had to get 5 years worth of gunk off it!!) and that hair was so awesome!! It's so much better than I could have imagined! There were all these little curls in areas I looked to be only naps.. However some areas I looked for to be really curly are wavy at best, but it still looks nice. I had my other hair already in twists, I took them loose to see what my twist outs are gonna look like and I was FLOORED!! It was kinda messy, I mean it was freshly unlocked, not yet washed and no product was used to twist them with, so given all of that... It was awesome!! My hair is gonna really be beautiful.. Not that my locks aren't beautiful. And I will always be glad I grew them. But now it's time to get use to my loose hair. I mean, one day I'll be blessed with a little one.. And if I'm locked all the time, how will I know how to deal with her hair (If it's a girl that is.) I went straight from perm to locs.. Never really dealing with my hair.

Which means I am LOST! LoL! But I'll pull it together. :)

Jen

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Thinking Back...

I was just thinking about a situation a long time ago. I had short hair then, and my husband and I went to Fredricks of Hollywood, and the clerk said as we entered with her big white girl grin, "What can I help you gentlemen with today?" Last time I looked I was not a gentleman.. She was embarassed as hell when she realized her mistake, but that is something to think about. The persuit of being FEMININE!! I seem to have lost mine somewhere along the line. My bastard ass husband blamed my short hair and clothing. I was wearing his leather jacket.. Or my build.. Can't do squat about that. I mean I can lose some weight, but I'm still gonna have the same wide shoulders as I do now, just bonier I guess.. I don't know.. I don't think he really understands what a woman feels.. Nor does he care to. I guess that's why I've got my blogs..

But now I'm taking down my locks.. Oh, and that was a major MAJOR issue.. My locking.. He called me all kinds of dikes and lesbians, and thugs.. It just wasn't even damn funny!! If it wasn't for my twilight sleep-esq love of my locks, I don't think I would have made it. I would have ran screaming back to the perm! But I took the red pill and all was revealed..

Or was it the blue one? It was a Matrix thing.. Or Alice in Wonderland.. Hell you get it..

I can't see myself getting a perm again.. Maybe one day a texturizer, but I don't even see that on the horizon. However when DH found out I was planning to take down my locks, his gears started turning immediately...

Towards me getting a perm... And when I said no... He flipped out. I mean called me all kinds of stupid bitches and everything.. And that I wasn't gonna like my regular hair, and I wasn't gonna be able to comb it and it was gonna be hideous, and ugly, and nappy and hard.. I mean just the most hurtful things about something I was born with, that is a part of my most natural, REAL self. Hmmm.. Seems he says a lot of hurtful things... But this is a hair blog, so I'm gonna stick with hair feelings...

I know my hair is not silky. I'm not white, and I'm not one of those first generation mixed kids.. I KNOW what my hair looks like.. But in my mind our hair is not ugly.. I mean if we don't do anything to it just let it stay dry and crusty, yeah that's ugly. But it would be even on his so called perfect type of hair.. But I've seen some hair that would be called the "rough stuff" and it looks FAB!!! Beautiful.. But those who think like him would say that bitch needs a perm, or that nigga needs a hair cut.. It's plain lunacy!!

I guess the point of all this, other than to just vent is you can't let others define you. You can't let people make you do things that you don't want to do. YOU KNOW YOU!! And I know "naps" are just tiny curls. They should be treated like curls.. I actually hate the term nappy.. I know I'll get a true flogging for that, but I do. Because it implies that our curls are lesser than a white persons or a mixed person- or anyone with big open curls and silky hair. That our hair is ugly and shouldn't be concidered hair.. It's just some nappy ass crap that needs to be covered or altered. Just plain vulgar. I just don't like the inplications.. That's all...

So I'm not using nappy anymore. I'm using curly from now on.. I may still use coily... And I'm not sure about coily either. But as I have a group called Springy Coils, I have to stand by coily for now. FOR... NOW.... LoL! I'm thinking of changing the title to something else that reflects this more equal status movement... I'll let yall know soon...

Well, I guess I'm done rambling for now. I'm going to try to get some picking done.. Maybe I'll get a couple taken down this weekend.. I can't wait to see my little springs free and thick.. Gonna be a real ride...

More to come...


Jen

Sunday, May 01, 2011

Natural Thoughts....

I have been stalking hair vlogs on YouTube and looking at all the product reviews.. Just having me a good time... Now not all hair I see is.... PLEASING to my eye.. But beauty is in the eye of the beholder I guess and far be it from me, being a new Ne-Ga-Ro (Like how I did that.. Keep saying it.. You'll get it..), to deter anyone from a more natural life.. You're beautiful because you are as you are....


But even with all that.... I've noticed something....

Most highlighted naturals....

A. Have hair that shouldn't have been processed in the first place...

AND

B. Are thin or have thin or small faces or heads..

So now then there's me.. Sure I was fine with my locks.. I was so in the romance and bliss and sugar snaps and farts stage of being natural that I just went with it.. Big ol' head and fat face and all.... I didn't care about hard hair cause I wanted it as hard and kinky as possible because (I believed)that would make me lock faster and make awesome locks.. And it did. My locks are awesome.. Lint and all. LoL! But a heavy woman can have locks.. Hell, stereotypically we are the ones with them. (The stereotype is not flattering.) But this is gonna be my natural, tightly curled, busy hair... On my fat head... Around my fat face.... kinda scary...

Fear won't stop me.. But has anyone else noticed this? Most of the naturals online look like models!! I'm wondering what will I do looking like regular old folks? I just took loose my 5th lock and am almost done with my 6th. (Yeah, I'm on a roll this weekend!! LoL!) Since I'm not destroying my already carpal tunnel ridden hands anymore on that debone line, I can take them loose more often, so probably in another month or 2 I'm gonna be totally loose!! I have to get some help with this or I'll be rocking some fierce hair.. With my HEAD DOWN!!! Not a good look..

So I have to get some confidence pretty damned fast... Still.. Has anyone noticed the whole "gotta be skinny and cute for natural hair" thing? Or is it just me?

Later..

Jen

Saturday, April 30, 2011

Oh the hard... Hard... HARD....

WORK!!! Locs are hard to take down.. I see why people cut them instead of picking them apart...


BUT....

Smart ass me, decided to not cut my hair again... Well, not MAJOR cutting anyway. Maybe it's spiritual.. Maybe I just don't look good with small hair.. Either way.. No cutting... Right...


Anyway, I'm taking down I think my 5th loc. Which sucks cause when you're done, it's so skinny that you can join two.. NO you HAVE to join two just to get a good sized twist.. Seems not worth it and if you DON'T have a cutting vice, I say go ahead and just chop.. At least half the lock off if they are long as mine. (They're bra band length in some spots.)I would NOT be mad at cha. LoL!


But here I am picking. I found a small toothed comb in the bathroom (Might be mine... Maybe have been here when I moved in.. Not sure.) and I have my shoe needles or craft.. What the hell do you call 'em... NEEDLE POINT needles.. My hot conditioner water.. And I'm just picking... And the worry sets in....




These curls, though curls they are.. (I DO know that naps are just tiny curls..) They are little and they are... Kinda course... And in other spots they are kinda frizzy.. And I am a little scared as to how I'm going to pull all that into a nice head of hair.. Sure all hair is good hair.. But looking like a chicken is not a good look, boo boo... I have some starter products.. My LongAid activator, my Smooth N Shine gel... Some coconut oil as I've always used.. Or at least in the last couple years. But I'm thinking I'm going to need lots of products and mostly stick to twist outs instead of wash and goes cause I get loads of shrinkage, which is not entirely bad cause I get my big hair like that... But also because it would just friggin tangle so terribly that I'd never get it loose- I'd RElock and that's not what I'm going through all these hours of unpicking to do... Well, at least not right now... It's not out of the question to lock again.. Just right now.. I am wanting to dig these curls and coils for a minute... :)

DH is still thinking I need a perm or a texturizer or to texlax my hair for it to look right... Now, you know I am against chemicals in the hair and I'm going to try to prove him wrong.. I think I can.. But I don't condemn those who decide to process their hair anymore.. It's not worth the effort.. It's almost like telling white girls you don't need blond hair and double D's to be hot.. It just will end with you making them feel bad AND ugly because they can't grasp it and you'll just be damn TIRED.. Everyone knows what they need to do at that time to feel better.. Let 'em do it.. They'll come around sooner or later, and realize that "Hey.. I was made just as I was intended to be and whoever doesn't like it can suck it!" LoL! In any case, I think I'll convince MYSELF that my little curls are beautiful LOOOOOONG before I can convince DH that they are cute and beautiful and just as awesome as them big old silky curls. But it won't be easy.. Remember what I went through with him when I was locking? Yeah.. I'm looking to be in for the same kinda crap..

Anyway, I guess I'm done rambling.. I got over here to rest my hands and kinda give yall a taste of what I'm up to with the locked to loose journey. I should be able to get some taken down since I'm off for a week.. VACATION baby!! LoL!!


More to come.... :)

Jen

Monday, April 11, 2011

Surprise!!!!

I took some pictures!!! Yeah! As you know I took about 4 locks loose and I've been practicing on that hair to see the texture and how much product it needs (LOADS!!) and I must say.. I'm loving this hair... I can't wait to get it all taken down!! However I do see I'm going to have to load on the gel or cream or WHATEVER I decide to use to define curl to control FRIZZ!!! My hair has always been very frizzy so I don't see why it would be any different as an adult. :p Anyway, a few impromptu pictures...

I just took loose a twist, washed it...

Used

Vo5 as a leave in
LongAid Curl Activator Gel
under
Smooth n Shine Gellations Styling Gel

I didn't use much because for such a small section, I didn't think it needed it... It needed it. After 5 minutes the frizz started in.. But the ends were AWESOME!! More product and it would have been IN THERE! LoL! I think my hair isn't a 4b/c as I thought either.. It is a mix of 3c and 4a-c. :p

Anyway, here are the pics..


Hopefully there will be many more to come. :)

Jen

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Locked to Loose... Sounded so simple...

But it is hard as FIRECRACKERS!! I decided to actuall do it in January this yesr and I've undone 4. FOUR!!!! My hands were getting better.. Then came breast debone. And now thar are screwed up again. So it hurts to pick the hair apart for so long. So I could just cut it.. But I can't bring myself to part with that much hair yet. I know beauty is not in hair length or texture... But come on!!! it's half way my back. I grew this for 5 1/2 years!! I'm attached to it! I know it's time to free them, but I just don't know how to go about it just yet. I did decide to separate some of the multi headed dragons up there and accidently chopped off a LONG head.. (LoL! Sounds weird right?) I hated it but, it happens..




I'm alright. :) I had to separate them because it would save SO much time undoing them. Heads take as long to undo as the lock itself.. You'd be adding time.. PLUS.. You look less one sided if you take small locks loose. Instead of having a giant chunk of loose hair on one side and locks on the other side.. And it made them hang better and ponytail better.. So the chopping in half was not a bad idea....

Now if I can just GET THEM LOOSE!! LOL!! Should get easier as I'm off debone. (Yep, pay drop and all.:( BOO!!! ) But now my hands will get well and I can continue to take my locks down with my newly healed hands... I've been checking out YouTube kind of getting an idea of how to take care of the curls.. I've never had to do it actually. My mom always straightened it and when I got older we just relAXED it... Then I went straight to locks. So I've been natural for 5 1/2 years and have no idea how to take care of natural hair.. LoL! Well, natural LOOSE hair. So I'm going to need a lot of HELP.. But luckily I have internet which has Nappturality and YouTube and Google search and Bing... LoL!! I can find what I need.. :)


OK, damn, now I'm done rambling.. I do that sometimes.. :p

Jen

I'm done.. Just a quick ramble..

Friday, January 21, 2011

Long Aid Activator Gel





I love this product!! In fact I'm a long time fan! I use to use it back in my jheri curl days and I plan to use it when I'm fully loose. Right now I have just undone 2 locks but I already know I'm going to be using this for my twists and wash and gos..

Ingredients: Water (Aqua), Glycerin, Oleth-20, Triethanolamine, Carbomer 940, Aloe vera gel, Panthenol, Hydrolized protein, DMDM Hydantoin, Methylparaben, fragrance (parfum), Propylene glycol, EXT. D&c Violet #2

Gotta love a product who's first ingredients are water and Glycerin!! Now it does have protein, which I really didn't know I tell ya what (Ala Hank Hill on King of The Hill.) But I guess since it is so moisture rich, I haven't had a problem with it. On my two little twists, I use this over leave in and coconut oil, and under Smooth N Shine Gellations styling gel. It seems to give lots of definition and hold, but is soft to the touch. It keeps the twists looking great for a week or more I imagine if I left it there that long. (I don't because I'm trying to UNDO my locks, not make new ones! LoL!!)

The blue label type is great as well, but I don't think it has Aloe. If you don't like Aloe, then that may be a better one to try. I get the green because it seems to moisturize better and makes my hair softer. I've tried all sorts of activators and this one was the best by far when I was drippin' my curl- cause this type of activator doesn't DRIP.. :) And it just softens so well and made those curls POP like crazy.

Will I repurchase? Oh yeah...

Jen

Friday, December 31, 2010

Unlocking.. The process.

So I've decided to free the lion and unlock my hair. So far I've done 2 and it's taken 2 HOURS!! Now, this is when most peeps just say screw it and either remain locked or just chop. As of now, I still plan to free my locks. :~) I imagine it will take quite some time, but is worth it. I went ahead and bought my first loose hair products. Long Aid Activator (green label)and Smooth n Shine Gellations Styling Gel. Both not bad so far. I use them on my loose part. (I have 2 locks loose and one that I started taking loose.) There will be a review on Guinea Me for sure. ;~)

I'm taking this unlocking process just as I did the locking process. It takes time and patience. Getting these awesome locks took 5 years. Anything worth having is worth working for and waiting for. It will take as long as it takes. I'm fine with that. But I'm not perfect. Sometimes I feel like screw this! Imma just whack it off!! LoL! But no. And I kept loads of length- and it just shrinks right back up! LoL! Stretched it's almost APL, but it draws up to cheek level. It's really pretty though. Nice and curly. :~)

Well, I guess that's all. Oh, and .•*•. Happy New Year.•*•.

Jen

Friday, November 26, 2010

This Journey...

Well as you probably all know, I've been locked and a locking advocate for over 5 years. I'm stilla lock advocate, but honestly... I think I wanna be loose again. I know, it is so unexpected. But just as I felt it was just time to lock, now I feel it's time to free them. I love locks and I wouldn't be surprised if 5 yrs down the line I'll feel it's time to lock again. Who knows I may STAY locked now, but I think this is it folks. Jen's about to be a loose nap. :)

Now, for those who know my story, you know I went the dread life all alone. Well, looks like that's how it will be on this too. DH got use to my locks and now loves them because they are long now. He's from the old school where long hair is only second to SLICK and SILKY hair. Ugh. I get it, believe me I do. I'm having some issues with taking them down. Hell, I'm taking them down because I don't want to cut all that hair off. But I'm pretty sure if I was single, I'd BC this weekend. I'd regret it for a minute, but I'd love touching those soft kinky curls. But he brings up things like my hair would look horrible. And it would be too nappy. And I'd have to perm it for it to work!! Look folks, this desire to BC or take down my "forever" locks has made me reevaluate my "never" vows. But that is one I can say NEVER to!! Because a perm is not necessary. EVER! From relaxers to curly perms to texturizers. From black, to white, to Asian, Indian- here is no reason to chemically alter your beautiful natural hair. PERIOD. We're all beautiful. Naturally.

But dreads are spiritual. I still believe that. I wouldn't undo my locking experience for ANYTHING! I learned so much locking. The patience, and knowledge obtained from locking is just magical. :) But it's that wisdom that let's Maximus that there's a time to set em free sometimes. And that I used my locks to just not deal with my hair. Underneath it all, I assumed my hair was just good for locking. Maybe I was right. But something is telling me my hair is HAIR. Nothing to be ashamed of.

Well, that's my post. For now. I think I'll be here much more these days. :)


Later.

Jen

Friday, August 27, 2010

Five full years..

OK, now I'm pissed!! I accidentally deleted a 5 paragraph post, so now I'm paraphrasing.(sp?)

OK, loving the locks, though they are not as "fantastic" as they once were. They are awesome, but I'm just not as obsessed with them.

I"m using Suave Humicant. It works wonderfully.

I have lint. I've been maintaining them alone, so I can't see all over. It's really not bothering me that much.

I'm still smoke free. I quit December 13, 2009. I still have urges, but I"m fighting them off. :) I'm sticking with this as long as I can. :p

Still no kiddies yet.

Yeah, I was gonna wow yall, but I'm tired. I've been working 12+ days lately. I'm back in the workforce and according to the nation's reports, I should feel lucky. :)

There will be pictures as soon as I get a chance to snap some.. Wow.... Five years.. My locks are bra band lenght in most areas and getting DELIGHTFULLY in the way of EVERYTHING.. LoL!

See ya...

Jen